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Super the movie review by ME :D

2012-01-17T09:07:00.000-08:00

i took a day off from work today, just to chill and bought a DVD just to watch and relax. And i ended up buying this movie called SUPER.

Shows about an average joe, Frank (Rainn Wilson) being dumped by his wife and she choose to her old life of drugs addiction with a drug tycoon. Frank's wife was one the only perfect thing that has happened to him, the rest of his life of pretty much rejection and humiliation. He then decide to save her wife back fom her old ways such as confronting the tycoon, reporting to police etc, yet all fails.

The break up of his wife have depressed him so much that his fantasy of being a superhero (the chosen one) have made he to the take up the choice to fight evil, (there's this scene where he fantasize so extremly that he saw a vision from 'God's angel' to become the chosen one to fight crime) the ultimate villain of cause of the drug tycoon. And the ultimate goal was to bring her wife back from her old ways.

So, there begins his journey of fighting crime in the street. He started small, with only a suit and mask, he started to clear crime in his neighborhood with of cause up and down. With no superpowers, super gadgets or even self defense training, nothing but the will of saving her wife back and the help/sacrifice of a sidekick, Libby (Ellen Page) have finally bought her wife safely into her hands.

However, the twist in this story is at the very end of the story, where her wife and him did not live happily ever after. :( why you ask ?? After the life risking, and death of friend just to get her back, the relationship only lasted for a couple of months and that too is because out of obligation.

Sounds pretty sad huh? Well, maybe a reality check for those who are in a relationship right now, some time sacrifice that might cause a life for a relationship, might not result a lifetime relationship. But that's beside the point.

the story ended with the wife left to persuade her studies, in secondary school and college, pick up a course in psychology to help out people that have been through the same path as her and move on with a family of 4 children. She reach the highest peak of her life, being successful and happily ever after. So what about the HERO, man? He eventually move on because he understand this,

God have chose Him to save his former wife from her reckless living, and using him to give her a second chance. It is because of the blood shedding, life risking, tears and love that leave her an impact so hard to break her from her old ways. That was God's plan for him. The guy behind the scene to build a real hero (her ex-wife) to change the society.

Its funny how, we do not get the credit/reward we deserve after helping out people sometimes, and it hurts and disappoint more especially if its someone we been trying to get attention from or please, or just simply love and care about. But just because your sacrifice was not recognize, it doesnt mean it did not leave any impact on the person your offering help to. Plus , helping someone it was never about the return or the reward u will receive, it was always to help someone to achieve what is better/greater.

Feeling unappreciated lately? cheers mate, welcome to reality.The culture of society have made people to be self focus, to the extend we will not invest in anything else that doesnt benefit ourself, this is reality. But the heart of human, have made us different from others, we undefined reality. Now, if u understand what i'm trying to say here, what i'm trying to say is it doesnt really if u get fucked and screwed after trying to help someone, so long ur intention is good, it has planted a seed that will grew a tree of goodness.

wow.. post #200

2011-11-20T07:16:00.000-08:00

Its a day before my finals, STPM. Well, frankly speaking I already given up. Why? Everyone been asking me that? Why gave up on your studies? Why have u change? Why u have become like this? What went wrong?

Honestly, really, i dont know. Well, it's not because i really have no idea, but i refuse to think about it. I really dislike thinkin, Sometimes i wished i could just be a robot, just follow instruction, there isn't choice, there's no need think.

to be continue... i promise i'll come back. Just too tired to think now

2011-10-30T09:04:00.000-07:00

Just saw a post done by a good friend of mine, Harmony wee, and immediately i couldn't hold back my tears upon reading her post..

http://twothreeeight.blogspot.com/2011/10/daddys-girl-i-am.html

Its a really simple post, saying how much she misses her dad, and how she precious every moment she have with him. She wishes she have more time with him as much as possible.

Upon reflecting this post to myself, I realize I never be able to have such Love towards my father. Nope, the hurt he have done towards me have left a deep scar within me. Yes, I have forgiven him but no, I'm not ready to reconcile with him just yet, I can't. It's really sad, and i really envy her till a point that Im ashamed of myself that I cant no more put myself in the position to show a little love rather than just obligation of a son towards a father.

Harmony, if you're reading this, Im telling you, I would trade all i have now so I could plant a tiny seed of love towards my family. but unfortunately my heart has gone too far and too cold for my family now. Its nothing but my blood-relatives.

And to my dearest Harmony Wee May Cher, trust me, your stronghold of love doesn't go unnoticed, he's already there, he knows and he feels it. He sacrificing this precious moment with you for YOU, and Your Future. So persist on on life, dun give up, dun let him down. He loves you more than anything else in this world.

Wee May Cheer 4 Harmony !! =D

2011-09-27T10:50:00.001-07:00

No, nothing life shattering, nothing so bad hit my life, nothing, it's just that Im worn out, worn out in trying, tired of failing, sick of being unnoticed,

Im sorry for being ignorant, being selfish, isolate myself from everyone. But for now, i just cant possibly offer u anything more but a smile. Im not one for words.

Rolling in the deep

2011-07-29T09:32:00.000-07:00

a song by Adele.. well, its really a nice song, the radio just cant stop playin this song. then, i realise many people a cover of the song, officially one song that gt the most cover in the most short amount of time.. hmm, so i decided to post some cover videos on my blogs.. bt first of all the lyrics

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch, and it's bringing me out the dark
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare
See how I'll leave with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch
And it's bringing me out the dark

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

Baby, I have no story to be told
But I've heard one of you
And I'm gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there
As mine sure won't be shared

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
But you played it with a beating

Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
It all, it all, it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

You could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

But you played it
You played it
You played it
You played it to the beat.

1. the original artist - Adele

2.Maddi Jane (Youtube artist)

3.Linkin Park (their first cover of another artist song)

4. John Legend

5. Sam Tsui & Tyler ward (two youtube sensation colaboratin)

6. Mike Posner

7. Glee Cast

8. Mike Tompkins (Accapella artist)

9. Boyce Avenue

10. David Cook (American Idol winner)

11.Alex Goot & Justin Robenett & Michael Henry (personal favorite)

12. David Choi ( Producer)

13. Kina Grannis

14. Jamie XX remix

15. Jake Coco & Tiffany Alvord (Youtube Artist)

16. Christina grimme (Youtube Artist)

17. The Fu (youtube duo)

wow, believe thrs more to come! bt yea, i think Adele gonna hit some world record for most covers by other artist..

"Rolling in the Deep" has reached number one in eleven countries and top five in several other countries. The song has also become Adele's first number-one song in the U.S., reaching the top spot of four Billboard charts. "Rolling in the Deep" spent seven weeks atop the Billboard Hot 100, the longest-running number-one single of 2011 so far. In July, the video was nominated for seven MTV Video Music Awards nominations, making it the most nominated music video of the year.[5] -wikipedia-

"No negatives" -about.com-

*i do not own any of the music or video above. Its all belong to the respective video uploader. :D

2011-06-12T09:27:00.000-07:00

It has been awhile since i blog.. while, pretty much because nobody reads and obody cares..

Hows life? its fine, really, im very comfortable with it. Life is full of tense moment, stressed environment, asshole surrounding, a broken family. YEs, im comfortable it being sucky.

Im comfortable running away from it, I find security in escaping from prblem, in delaying messed.. Life from time from time.. Yes, with my mum that is never ever proud of me, being friends who stands out at least something and u have nothing in your hand, u barely past any of your papers. The fact i still can fake a smile everyday should be praise worthy..

I find myself very useless although i know i'm not (well because everyone tells me im not) because everyone seems to be good at something, and shit, im good for nothing. Im just a fucked up brat, that cries when he loses something, and only knows how to fucking demand for more when he wants it. Thats why God is awesome, He always provide, really He does. Reall, i find no other comfor than in HIm..

I really really love God. more than anything else, when life is all fucked up, and everything is upside down, He there, and He knows exactly wat to do.. Well, often is only i dowan to respond to His solution...... I know he's waiting for me, but i just cant seem to respond to His love. I cant forgive myself for the things i have done, i cant seems to let go of the grudge i have towards the one i hate.

FML.

I like this irritating song

2011-04-29T08:00:00.000-07:00

I fly with the stars in the skies,
I am no longer trying to survive,
I believe that life is a prize,
But to live doesn't mean you're alive.

Don't worry bout me, and who I fire
I get what I desire, it's my empire
And yes I call the shots, I am the umpire
I sprinkle holy water, upon the vampire (vampire)
In this very moment I'm king,
In this very moment I slay, Goliath with a sling,
This very moment I bring
Put it on everything, that I will retire with the ring,
And I will retire with the crown, Yes!
No I'm not lucky I'm blessed, Yes!
Clap for the heavyweight champ, Me!
But I couldn't do it all alone, We!
Young Money raised me, grew up out in Baisley
Southside Jamaica, Queens and it's crazy
cause I'm still hood, Hollywood couldn't change me
shout out to my haters, sorry that you couldn't phase me
ain't being cocky we just vindicated, best believe that when we done
This moment will be syndicated, I don't know, this night just reminds me of
everything that they deprived me of,
pppp, put ya drinks up, it's a celebration every time we link up
We done did everything they can think of
Greatness is what we on the brink of.

[Chorus]
I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life
Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive

I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life
Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive

[Drake]
Yeah
Yeah
Yeah, ugh
What I tell 'em hoes bow bow bow to me, drop down to ya knees

Young Money the Mafia that's word to Lil Cease
I'm in The Dominican Big Papi Ortiz
doin' target practice all these bitches just aiming to please
shout out to the CEO 500 degrees
shout out to the OVO where we set for T's, awww
N*ggas wanna be friends how coincidental
This supposed to be ya'll year we ain't get the memo
Young King, pay me in gold
40 got a bunch of weed he ain't even roll
These n*ggas be droppin' songs they ain't even cold
Weezy on top and that n*gga ain't even home, yet!
yeah, be very afraid these other rappers getting bodied and carried away
f-ck it me and Nicki Nick gettin' married today
And now you bitches that be hatin can catch a bouquet, ouww
yeah, you a star in my eyes, you and all them white girls party of five
are we drinking a lil more I can hardly decide
I can't believe we really made it I'm partly surprised, I swear
d*mn, this one for the books, man!
I swear this shit is as fun as it looks, man!
I'm really tryna make it more than what it is, cuz everybody dies but not everybody lives!

[Chorus]
I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life
Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive

I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life
Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive

[Nick Minaj]
This is my moment, I waited all my life I can tell its time
drifting away I'm one with the sunsets, I have become alive.

[Chorus]
I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life
Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive

I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life
Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive

Somewhere With You

2011-03-31T07:01:00.000-07:00

If you're going out with someone new
I'm going out with someone too
I won't feel sorry for me, I'm getting drunk
But I'd much rather be somewhere with you

Laughing loud on a carnival ride, yeah
Driving around on a Saturday night
You made fun of me for singing my song
Got a hotel room just to turn you on

You said pick me up at three a.m.
You're fighting with your mom again
And I'd go, I'd go, I'd go somewhere with you

I won't sit outside your house
And wait for the lights to go out
Call up an ex to rescue me, climb in their bed
When I'd much rather sleep somewhere with you

Like we did on the beach last summer
When the rain came down and we took cover
Down in your car, out by the pier
You laid me down, whispered in my ear

I hate my life, hold on to me
Ah, if you ever decide to leave
Then I'll go, I'll go, I'll go

I can go out every night of the week
Can go home with anybody I meet
But it's just a temporary high 'cause when I close my eyes
I'm somewhere with you, somewhere with you

If you see me out on the town
And it looks like I'm burning it down
You won't ask and I won't say
But in my heart I'm always somewhere with you

Laughing loud on a carnival ride, yeah
Driving around on a Saturday night
You made fun of me for singing my song
Got a hotel room just to turn you on

You said pick me up at three a.m.
You're fighting with your mom again
And I'd go, I'd go, I'd go

I can go out every night of the week
Can go home with anybody I meet
But it's just a temporary high 'cause when I close my eyes
I'm somewhere with you, somewhere with you

Somewhere with you
I'm somewhere with you
I'm somewhere with you
Somewhere with you
Somewhere with you

Living Sacrifice

2011-03-29T21:29:00.000-07:00

Recently, i was challenged by God to give up something which meant alot to me. It was tough, but then i figured, if it placed a smile in His face, its all worth it.. Why do i know He is smiling, well, i dun really know, but is called faith. Hmm, i dun even knw am i making sense but yes, God never give less, sometimes more, but always enough, so for me to let go what i hold precious was just so that i could something better in return. God is more awesome than anything you are holding now. Plus, the price for the prize is always not cheap..

God called us to be a living sacrifice, to be burned alive so that we can be set on for him.. It hurts, but no pain no game..

2011-02-16T06:20:00.000-08:00

this is somewhat touching and cool and weird.. haha..

You're so hypnotizing
Could you be the devil
Could you be an angel

Your touch magnetizing
Feels like I am floating
Leaves my body glowing

They say be afraid
You're not like the others
Futuristic lover
Different DNA
They don't understand you

Your from a whole other world
A different dimension
You open my eyes
And I'm ready to go
Lead me into the light

Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch are foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

Your so supersonic
Wanna feel your powers
Stun me with your lasers
Your kiss is cosmic
Every move is magic

Your from a whole other world
A different dimension
You open my eyes
And I'm ready to go
Lead me into the light

Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch are foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

There is this transcendental
On another level
Boy, you're my lucky star

I wanna walk on your wave length
And be there when you vibrate
For you I'll risk it all
All

Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch are foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

Extraterrestrial
Extraterrestrial

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch are foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

This CNY

2011-02-02T06:43:00.000-08:00

it wasnt a season im looking forward too. it never was, bt i guess this year was different. Well, the situation is stil the same. the people are still the same, bt i guess it was the way i took it. :D hehe.. Yes, of coz with alot of Help frm God. :D
I guess, knowing that it all started when people love.........

this is love

It’s in the eyes of the children
As they leave for the very first time
And it’s in the heart of the soldier
As he takes a bullet on the front line
It’s in the face of a mother
As she takes the force of a blow
And its in the hands of the father yeah
As he works his fingers to the bone yeah

I’m standing under a white flag oh
Can you see me oh, can you see me oh
I’m standing for everything we have oh
Can you hear me oh, can you hear me

This is why we do it this is worth the pain
This is why we bow down and get back up again
This is where the heart lies, this is from above
Love is this, this is love

Love is why we do it love is worth the pain
Love is why we fall down, get back up again
Love is where the heart lies love is from above
Love is this, this is love

This is love (x3)

It’s in the soul of a city
What it does after it crumbles and burns
And it’s in the blood of a hero
To know where he goes he may never return yeah

I’m standing under a white flag oh
Can you see me oh, can you see me oooh
I’m standing for everything we have oh
Can you hear me oh, can you hear me

This is why we do it this is worth the pain
This is why we bow down, get back up again
This is where the heart lies this is from above
Love is this, this is love
Love is why we do it love is worth the pain
Love is why we fall down, get back up again
Love is where the heart lies love is from above
Love is this, this is love

This is love, this is love ..

Bridge (rap)
If you could be anywhere that you wanted to be
With anyone that you wanted to be with
Do anything that you wanted to do
What would it be and who would it be with you
Time flies but you’re the pilot
It moves real fast but you’re the driver
You may crash and burn sometimes

This is why we do it this is worth the pain
This is where we bow down get back up again
This is where the heart lies this is from above
Love is this, this is love
Love is why we do it, love is worth the pain
Love is why we fall down get back up again
Love is where the heart lies love is from above
Love is this, this is love

(This is love!)

of coz at the same time, im having a super hard time to move on.. Haha, i still miss her..

Am I better off dead
Am I better off a quitter
They say I'm better off now
Then I ever was with her
As they take me to my local down the street
I'm smiling but I'm dying trying not to drag my feet

They say a few drinks will help me to forget her
But after one too many I know that I'm never
Only they can see where this is gonna end
But they all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense

[Chorus]
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around

I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words,
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred,
So I dialed her number and confessed to her,
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing (nothing, nothing...)

[Verse 2]
So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know I'm with her face to face, that she'll come to her senses
Every drunk step and path leads me to her door
If she sees how much I'm hurting
She'll take me back for sure

[Chorus]
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around

I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words,
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred,
So I dialed her number and confessed to her,
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing (nothing, nothing...)
She said nothing (nothing nothing)
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing
Nothing
I got nothing
Nothing
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

[Verse 3]
Oh sometimes love's intoxicating
Oh you're coming down your hands are shaking
When you realise there's no one waiting

Am I better off dead
Am I better off a quitter
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her

[Chorus]
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around

I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words,
And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred,
So I dialed her number and confess to her,
I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing (nothing, nothing...)
She said nothing (Nothing, nothing...)
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing (Nothing, nothing...)
I got nothing (Nothing, nothing...)
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing (Nothing, nothing...)
I got nothing, I got nothing

mad world

2011-01-29T19:13:00.000-08:00

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere

Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very, very
Mad world, mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/g/gary-jules-lyrics/mad-world-lyrics.html]
Happy birthday, happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen

Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me, what's my lesson?
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very, very
Mad world, mad world, enlarging your world
Mad world

2011-01-27T23:27:00.000-08:00

Hi
Girl you just caught my eye
thought I should give it try
and get your name & your number
go grab some lunch & eat cucumbers
WHY, DID I SAY THAT?
I don't know why.
But you're smilin' & it's something' i like
on your face, yeah it suits you
girl we connect like we have bluetooth

i don't know why
I'm drawn to you
Could you be the other one so we'd equal two?
and this is all based on a lucky chance
that you would rather add then subtract

You & I
could be like sonny & cher
honey & bears
You & I
could be like aladdin & jasmine
lets make it happen

La La's

Hey
How've you been?
I know that it's been awhile.
Are you tired cause you've been on my mind
runnin' thousand & thousands of miles
Sorry, I know that line's outta style
but you
you look so beautiful on this starry night
loving the way the moonlight catches your eyes & your smile
i'm captivated
your beauty is timeless never outdated

i don't know why
I'm drawn to you
Could you be the other one so we'd equal two?
and this is all based on a lucky chance
that you would rather add then subtract

babe
its been 5 years since that special day
when I asked you on our first date
i guess it's safe to say

Let me say
you look beautiful on our wedding day

The cause

2011-01-26T05:27:00.001-08:00

What's your greatest fear dear?

Are u happy here?

What's your greatest fear dear?

Is it holding on too tight

to what you thought was always right?

Do you want to steer clear of the truth of behind your lies?

Its time to open up your eyes.

You said you're working on the cause of your displeasure

Are we too deep in it now to stay together?

We are broken by the search to make this better
torn and blinded by the lie pleasure

I think we're almost repaired and if i got this right

we need to modify our lives.

Will you follow me there?

take a trip into the light

to the sun up in the night

You said you're working on the cause of your displeasure

Are we too deep in it now to stay together?

We are broken by the search to make this better
torn and blinded by the lie pleasure

This bridge i crossing

Will end up costing

me fears that never sleep

they never sleep

You said you're working on the cause of your displeasure

Are we too deep in it now to stay together?

We are broken by the search to make this better
torn and blinded by the lie pleasure. -tyler ward

2011-01-23T05:49:00.001-08:00

Hey dear, we havent been talking to u in awhile

Would u for me just smile?

I wouldnt mind another thousand mile,

just to see u for awhile.

U make me feel really special dear,

But that is what i fear,

coz everytime we get near,

I know one day we will end up in tear.

You're so nice,

you gave me the same chance twice,

but u just to pay so high of a price

is not worth the sacrifice.

And now with all the complication

there is just so much friction

but you're so patience

with all my addiction..

U said it wasnt fair

U said it must to an end because u care

But risking getting hurt i dare

because holding your hand is like breathing the air.

Let your memories about me be hidden in the grave

because you derserve someone who is brave

someone who can your wave

someone when u fall, he can save

Now we're just cant click

The heat is just getting too thick

avoiding each other by building bricks

and it so awkward it sound like crick crick

Now this relationship cant be keep

all i can do is weep

dun worry about my pain getting too deep

I'll be alright after my sleep

END

2011-01-13T05:42:00.000-08:00

Yo, i know its been a fking long while since i blog. Hehe.. my apologies to people who actually take their time to read this. Well, reason i stop blogging for while is because it consume alot alot alot of time plus i dun have the freedom of internet at home.

Well, today i gonna announce something. That i have decided to end this blog. END it. well, basically, in my blog, all i ever did was just scribble out my thoughts (which is mostly destructive) on the screen. And it has been sorry to say, gave people many wrong thoughts about me and about life. Not only that, the way of expressing my thoughts on blog is not as good as me scribbling it out on a piece of paper, and den throw it away. Hence, i guess this is as far as my blog will.

Ending something just feel so good. U know like how when u finish a story book, u just feel the satisfaction of putting in the effort and the focus on the story. So this is my satisfaction of finishing my blog. But ending it doesnt mean it stop. definatly nono, life still goes on, God will still be there, From the begining til the very end (AMEN) lol.. so people..

by now, u know that this post is just a false alarm and i just lying, like i always do. Haha.. just posting this out of randomness and just for the sake of posting a post. LOL.. nothing can end that easily. This is simply because everything wil mean everything to everyone. So yea, this is not thre end of my blog. :p

and now if u havent figure u just wasted ur past 3 mins reading this post, and by now u should delete this link from ur comp forever. But here something cool.

E- Energy
N- Never
D-dies

Exactly, nothing actually end... nothing actually die.. Maybe just gone temporarily but it will never ever disappear. So have fun guys. Have a great year ahead! stop reading my blog.

2010-09-13T05:48:00.000-07:00

Forgiving is not about making it even

Forgiving is not about forgetting the past, but leasrning from the past and moving on

Forgiving is about moving on and resolving to what is better

Forgiving is about making peace

Forgiving is not about dweeling in your feeling

Forgiving is not about seeking revenge

Forgiving is the cure to broken heart

Forgiving is an action of love.

Forgiving does not mean its over

Forgiving might mean separation

Forgiving is about fixing a broken relationship

Forgiving is not always about giving.

Forgiving is hard, is the better than hatred

Things to do next week (in no particular order):

2010-09-10T00:57:00.000-07:00

1) shopping with the tan's
2) dinner with Kim
3) R & D proposal with Sook
4) Copy Maths homework.. (not gonna happen)
5) Blue BBQ at Deb's
6) Yam cha with Chua
7) Uniform session with F6 Pengawas
8) change your world quest!
9) MPT things..
10) MPT practice ( i think i'm performing)
11) get paid check
12) finish 07 ghost
13) finish Gourmet
14) get a gf?? (maybe not)
15) last but not least.. go DREAMING!!!

2010-09-01T03:29:00.000-07:00

alrite.. this merdeka..

i started off like any other day where i felt like is just another holiday. Until i turned on facebook. And my homepage was spam with omplaints and comment about Merdeka. And i was stunted and all i read was change or no hope and all. But it hit me that, how many people are willing to step out for a change. Even if somebody stood up to be a change agent, is the poepl gonna back him or her up?? Lets not even tallk about someone who gonna make the change, is he people ready for a change. BEcause u see, change comes with commitment and requires u to come out from your comfort zone. How many people are willing to do so??

Personally placing racism comment in media is okay for me, but can u imagine the impact of kids reading it. It will definatly change their mindset of their friends who are other races if they could not analyse the issue properly.

Hmm, in conlusion i feel that this merdeka, i have learnt is not about the change we have made, but is bout how much change we will make. Happy merdeka, everybody. =D

2010-08-19T10:03:00.000-07:00

letting you make important decision does not mean you know what the best for me, and does not mean all things will goes as u plan. so it does not give u a damn right to take control of my life for u are no God. (even if God, God gave me a choice to foolow or not to follow)

Haih, and yea, thanks for doing stuff without thinking the consequences consequnces.

LOL, wen u rather to belief a lie more than truth, wats the point of talking to you anymorre. u asking me to be rasional, lol? im sorry man. this is wad happen when you have a donkey which is irrational and stubborn. so deal with it man.

i had ebough of tolerating already. Enough man. Not bcoz its getting on my nerve but bcoz u will soon hurt yourself. im sorry, but my words will be sharper.. and its really gonna be on your face..

zzz.. no more Mr.Nice guy i guess.. hehe...

2010-08-14T11:00:00.000-07:00

let me start with this, right now, i dun knw wat to feel right now. i dun knw hw to feel and i just want to be numb to everythig. i wanna be cold hearted so that i can be cruel and people wil be scare of me. :) hehe.. i hate stuff that have hidden motive......

I just dun knw hw to feel it right anymore. lolx. told u nt to live by wat you feel

cant u hear sincerity in my voice.

2010-08-08T09:48:00.000-07:00

this post its gonna be long. So hit the exit button now, if u do not wish to go on. :D

3 weeks has past since my dad told us that he dont want to leave with us anymore and i guess everything is picking up themself. As much as we try to be strong, we knw it hurts. THe pain of being cheated by someone u love wil not healed in the blink of an eye but time heals. (like everybody says) i know i dun show thhe pain much, maybe i'm good at acting, but the truth is, its hurts.

Well, not really because of the fact the he leave. But it is the small little things u knw. THe way it huurts my mum just raise the anger and hatred towards him, the way my brother try to adapt to wats happening making me feel useless, the fact that i really cant cope with my studies at school really makes me feel useless and like a pos.

few days back, i blame myself, could i ake a difference in what happen? if i had talk to him and confront my dad before about this.. the question just runs in my head, why didnt i confront him when i found out he was bitching and fucking outside when the whole entire family is just burning and suffering and struggling thru life. Could i have change anything?

And this is just half of it. I realised too that i cant tolerate critisim and discrimmination. Honestly, people worked hard and came to where they are today. But yet, u have nt understand a single shit of what they been thru happily be a simon cowell and critize on their life. WTH? who give u the right huh? Shut your mouth and try to see whta realy going on. I mean, have u knw hw deep the scar u have cost and how many friendship, hw many ppl gave up on their dream bcoz of u.. Although this doesnt happen to me recently, but i seen this around too much. And seriously, shut the F@#K up. ( not meant to be rude, bt i guess if i wasnt rude, would you listen, since its your language rite)

found this song recently. And i really feel this song, u knw what im trying to say. hehe.

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

but 1 thing i know for sure is this.

when life gets tough, u know u are on the right track,

because u wil get stronger, better and

u wil learn to appreaciate life a little bit more once u get thru it. :D

The world cant even hold us back right now. :)

2010-08-05T09:03:00.000-07:00

Today started off but, coz i was just plain tired and just so sick of school. And i had to stay back after school for prefect duties, just to knw that my service is nt needed when i arrived there. But then, nt by chance i manage to help out in the afternoon session RECESS REVOLUTION!! awesome stuff man!

but then when i got home, i was just so devasted and tired and dissapointed til i saw this in fb. :)

Mingwei Lee ‎"...Now that the cabinet has officially declared that such non-Muslim
religious clubs and societies are allowed to exist and be formed in
schools if there are at least 15 students signing up, I
hope the school heads, some of whom practise the Little Napoleon
culture, will not make things difficult for the students who want to
...form such clubs or societies." - MalaysiaToday, 05August'10 (credit: Lilyan Chee)

THis is the world cant even hold us back now..

i really wtf (want to fly).. hehe... fml(for my lover) out there.. here's something lame for u guys!! insipired by a 16 yr old boy.

You know we know how
To make em stop and stare as we zone out
The world can't even hold us back right now
Worship you I'm worship you we'll go all out
The world can't even hold us Back right now (yeahhhhh)
The world can't even hold us Back right now (yeahhhhh)

Hey
U are the light and I don't need other help
Got da awesome feeling cause U aare here
U're so big, nothing u can't plan
Life with u everything goes yeah!
Love so unfailing makes our hearts just melt
You're so funny i talk to u till Twelve
You're so great i can't stop and stare
Jesus, saviour, U're my best friend

Follow You coz that's the business
back sliding it's so ridiclous
Zone out so much attention
Scream out You died & rose 'gain (hey! )
They watchin I know this
U're rockin U're rolling
I'm holding, U know it
You know it

You know we know how
To make em stop and stare as we zone out
The world can't even hold us back right now
Worship you I'm worship you we go all out
The world can't even hold us back right now (yeahhhhh)
The world can't even hold us back right now (yeahhhhh)

Hey
Jesus came into my life and take control
Can't stop thinking but come lets go
Ten more years and I might be too slow
Paparazzi i gonna let u know
Come to the party that i came to know
Celebrate coz u came to know

having fun with the groupies and holy ghost
Grand finale' like superbowl
Go hard its your show
Shine His glory out and make them blow
More light more nice when He walk in the door
Or else He'll do it big all over the globe
Yeah!

I said it
Go tell it
Bout His love
Who ready?
I'm ready!
You ready!
Lets do it!

You know we know how
To make em stop and stare as we zone out
The world can't even hold us back right now
Worship you I'm worship you we go all out
The world can't even hold us back right now (yeahhhhh)
(Put your hands up! )
(Put your hands up! )
(Put your hands up! )
The world can't even hold us back right now (yeahhhhh)
(Put your hands up! )
(Put your hands up! )
(Put your hands up! )

You got me worship now (hey)
Got my attention now (hey)
Got everybody in the world wanting to know now
I am ur servant Lord
Come and be my saviour and...
We can roll, soo, ahhhhhh
Bring my body here for You as a daily offering
Take me up out of this world and into heaven oh
Fly me all around the world
What you want me Jesus
I am ready to go now!

You know we know how
To make em stop and stare as we zone out
The world can't even hold us back right now
Worship you I'm worship you we go all out
The world can't even hold us back right now (yeahhhhh)
(Put your hands up! )
(Put your hands up! )
(Put your hands up! )
The world can't even hold me back right now (yeahhhhh)
(Put your hands up! )
Lets celebrate now
(Put your hands up! )
You know that He loves U now!

FML- father's mother's love

2010-07-26T07:45:00.000-07:00

honestly, at thos very momment. I just really wanna fml. As in literally f my life. Yea, i knw hw i always say its a different phase of my life. Bt seriously is dam fking tough ok.. I mean seriously wei, is this smetime of jokes. yeap, some speaker once said, God is putting me thru all this bcoz he likes me, bt hey i dun really like myself. In fact, i hate myself.. (denying myself? Lolx)

Fck it la ok. I mean, i used to have a dream to go for my scholarship and persuade my dream, bt fine. Since u dowan it, den so be it. Bt nw u see wat a mess u have leave me and den u just amake it worst. Cme on wei, wat do u want frm me??

Thats nt enuf? Havent u figure out why i prefer staying outside den being at home. Trust me, its mre than frens. do u knw hw tense is it staying wif u. Trying to find fault in me? Like totally wtc? Dun rub it in when u knw that i am right.

Cant u see im trying my best to put a smile on my face already? Can u see that this isnt wat i want? Cant u? Why are u so blind??

Fml is smthg makes someone stronger and better. Bt it can also crush u down one day.

Why did u even decide to have me even when u knw its fking wrong? Yes, this is for the both of u..

finally..

2010-07-17T02:41:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. in less than 24 hours, i receive a phone call from my dad, saying that he cant stay with my family anymore.

Yes, again, they fought, and again, my dad was caught cheating again for the countless time. But this time, he ended up leaving the house. Well, i wasnt home when all this happened. When i got home, as usual, my mum was just like any other emo gal, telling me wad happened, and saying that my dad still have affair outside. And say that he have another family besides us. although all this is my mum's assumption, i'm not surprise at all.

Actually, i knew this all along. All this while i've just been 'buat bodoh-ing', keeping all things low, the reason where i belief in time that, all this should be keep low because it will just tear my mum apart. but i guess it's about time.

The marriage that wasnt start not of the reason of love will one day be broken. (see, thats why dun have se before marriage) Because they had me, they are forced to be married, and then till today, it has come to an end.

hmm.. well, i hope both of my parents can act like proper adult and just ket each other go and live their own live from now on. dun hate each other but wish the best for each other. Yes, although both of them are almost 50 years old now, but live is never too late to start enjoying.

currently i decided to stop picking up my dad phone call or in contact, because i think that, they should communicate themselve and not u their child to be the awkward messenger. so yea, i do not hate him.

In conclusion, although this is something i have expected this a decade although, but have prepared myself mentally. But the impact and the pain still really hurts. Haha.. Im fine. seriously. Cause Jesus loves me no matter wat. :)I hope that both of my parents will understand this too, hehe.

Bye dad, i hope this is the last time i'm saying this. :) and this is for both of my parents.

2010-07-17T00:14:00.000-07:00

life is very real. just hasn’t be as “in your face” as it is now.. zach from smk seafield.. whoa.. just the thing for me now.. i mean i expecting this thing to happen but just not now. so sien la.. haha.. cant it happen some other time.. lolx...

updates

2010-07-15T06:10:00.000-07:00

im sorry this blog has been so dead.. hehe.. so here are so quickie updates..

25th June: yes, its my bfday.. thx for the bfday wish guys.. seriously very touched by every wishes.. and trust me, i had a blast!! haha.. well, i started of in the bus station and head down to run the pre rally in Mentakab, pahang for the first ever rally!! whooo.. Its was seriously beyond awesome man. i mean wat could be better than surrender your 18th bfday back to God. Praise him..

26th june:
The thing was finnaly done!! haha.. sos rally arrived.. Pahang experience their first ever rally inspired by subang rally.. and it changed the lifestyle of the youth in Pahang..

well.. i wanted to post pictures.. but somehow i cant.. dk why.. haha.. blog must have merajuk wif me for not blogging for so darn long..

oh yea.. there was this girl that i never met before, but i get to know her thru msn or smthg like dat accepted christ wen she came for this event. So yea.. awesome stuff wei..

3th july

Exactly, in one week time.. Subang rally is here.. ignite!!

Nothing in contact with fire will ever be the same again..

This year, tough im like so darn old already i still get to serve in the technical team.. so awesome wei.. hehe.. and this year some how.. i ended going to rally with 14 years old... lolx..

Awesome?? yea.. pretty much.

en, rally was good la.. i mean.. i get to went up stage and talk.. amen!! haha.. sorry la.. it was my dream.. And if i wasnt wrong.. Andrian Goh and Samanha from my school actually accepted christ.. haha.. cool stuff wei..

hehe.. NOW:

So far form6 its not bad for me.. hehe.. im really interested in my subjects.. bt my teachers are abit 'errrrrrr' , lets just say, i dun suit their way of teaching.. its not the teachers, its me.. and i hate the stupid firetrucking cocuriculum wei. like seriously wei, first the 8 hours of studies and then we waste another two hours playing chess and snake and leaders.. totally wtc wei..

oh yea.. and then i was selected by the prefect leader to run for head prefect. Haha..

awesome stuff wei.. LOLX. i enjoyed being a prefect but then people like me..

But today when i was running for the campaign..

i felt it was more like a popularity contest than a campaign thing.. haih..

and i really doubt myself whether i can do it or not.. so yea..

so yea.. more updates coming soon.. hehe... lolx.. oh yea.. i shaved bald just for fun.. hehe.. and it just hit me that i really need to grow up wei.. hehe.

called me wat??

2010-06-23T08:00:00.000-07:00

called me crazy but didnt maths make u feel the same?
called me weird but being normal is not that fun
called me wrong, well nobody can be perfectly right,
called me mad, well, im just Making A Difference..

this is the time??

2010-06-22T05:52:00.000-07:00

Joel Houston once sang, the time has come to stand for what we believe in..

Haha.. In this the time again.. Pahang rally this saturday which requires me to skip school and subang rally the following week, coba iba on the third week and klang rally on the last week of the month. Lol, im already finding so hard to cope with my studies already and i'm just feel like going all out for God.

Ps: In sunway nw, hanging out with 8 gals.. 4 of them are nt local.. am i blessed or wat.. haha

this is what i feel rite nw

this rock..

2010-06-08T05:58:00.000-07:00

another reason why I bought my new phone.. I can blog anywhere.. Lol.. Awesome-ness.. Hehe...

2010-06-02T03:49:00.000-07:00

I feel my blog is quite meaningless.. haha.. who actually reads my blog. so anyway, updates about me.. I LOST MY WALLET FOR THE FORTH TIME!! haih.. this time wif more cash, license etc etc... haih.. dunno la.. bt i believe God is doing smoething good in my life la.. no matter wat happens, he has a plan for me.. haha..

LOL..im a pengawas percubaan wei.. believe it or nt.. lol.. is really adventurous la..haha... cant do it without God tough.. requires a lot of perseverance.. hehe.. especially when you a totally 'off' kid when you're form5.. haha..

i like her voive.. Christina Grimme

2010-05-28T06:17:00.000-07:00

It was like every other night, where i was calling my study mates to go out study with me. But Then i realize that everybody was with their family tonight. It immediately hit me that today was wesak day and its a public holiday. Where all the parents just lay back and rest. Then i t hit me again, why wasn't i hanging out wif my family? Well, cause my mum is working.. Yes, even on public holiday.

Haihx.. I felt bad that in a way, my mum is working hard for the family even if its public holiday. and its always she wants the best for me and all. Despite her endless nags, she just wants the best la i guess. This is the reality i guess, nt everybody will get the opportunity to enjoy luxury, but i guess.. my life... simplicity is luxury

Just enough

2010-05-25T03:52:00.000-07:00

I feeling very tired and just dun have the courage to even live for tomorrow. I dun have any direction or dun even know whether i have enough strength to live on. Tired, frustrated,demotivated,sad.. SICK both mentally and physically....

The one i hope, seem to be hopeless.. The love i expect love seem to turn around me.. But all i need is YOU. You are all i need, you give strength everyday, never less, sometime more, but ALWAYS just enough to move on for tomorrow. :)

Strength of God is living on today even you didnt know you can live on..

Do or die

2010-05-13T06:16:00.000-07:00

I guess i have achiened my selffish goal of being finacial independant.. But somehow.. Something is missing.. Haih.. DO or die. do also die.. dun do also will die.. Firetruck

2010-05-10T07:27:00.000-07:00

FORM 6 wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~ heheh.. yea!!

WISE quote of the day:

A new start but the end of the race is drawing near, so live like you're dying, if today is your last day...

2010-05-04T00:35:00.000-07:00

This is my story, this is my song..
i will praise You all the day long...

there's so many things that words cant explain.
and my action is not enough to express

but all i know is that u care,
because i can feel u there,
every momment even when im down and sad..

so walk by next to me,
together we will make our own love story
and i will create history,
all for the sake of Your glory.

2010-04-22T06:29:00.000-07:00

Yes.. i know my blog is dead...

Hmm... let me put something more encouraging this time la..
If you want something.. Go for it... Becuase your dreams are only dream which will nt come true if you dun go get it..

Haha.. why it only hit me know that, in life. sucess needs more than oppurnity but also effort..

lol.. i dun realy know where i am going with this post.. but again.. i really anna change my life.. like seriously..

I not gonna be myself anymore.. i wanna be myself but only better.. talking about myself and better..

which dude is better??

can He please everybody?

2010-04-06T22:01:00.000-07:00

You know.. People always say.. you cant please everyone... But now the question is? Can God pleases everybody?? What I'm saying now, the creator of this earth, the begining and the end of time and every living thing.. The everlasting God, the person that is full of love and mercy.. CAN HE PLEASE EVERYONE and full fill every needs of every man..

Honestly, i don't know. If he could, how do you explain the endless problem in this earth and countless people that go thru so much pain? But if he can't, so much for the almighty and powerful God. LOL

But as far as i have conclude.. is this laa.. God is already pleasing everybody, whether they realize it or not.. Its so obvious guys, when you gonna do something bad, does He sent a lighting down from the sky and shock u till death.. no rite.. But sometimes, when stuff doesn't go your way (God not pleasing you), its simply bcoz He has a greater plan for you!lol.. again is really wat i think only laa

I wish

2010-04-05T07:49:00.001-07:00

I wish i could start typing the thought in my heart now.. and suddenly compose a long long long blog spot. But i just cant.. i have tons tons and tons of stuff kept inside my heart and i really want to let it all out.. but i'm just feel so lost and confuse that i just dont know where to start.. Flip la...

But one thing is for sure, i know i dun want to do hotel management anymore.. what i really want is event management.. thanks to a wannabe event planning girl meet in sunway, which i forget her name that reminded me..

zz.. so where to study?? mas com or hospitality.... Form 6 or sucky uni?? FLIP FISH FEED FEET F********

I just feel like blogging

2010-03-22T06:55:00.000-07:00

Honestly, i dont know wat to blog about, but currently just so you know, my SPM result are not that awesome.. and i not super rich can go college.. and score A is very pressuring.. so yea.. zz.. anyway.. My emotion are so mixed up la.. lol.. SUPEREMO.. cant tell truth or lying..

Song in Latin

2010-03-18T23:01:00.000-07:00

Is warm and loving with her family and friend
Is sometimes impatient, but understanding
Overall, she's just plain super
Keeps on going, even after she stumbles
Believes she is valuable and worthwhile person
Takes full advantage of the pleasures everyday
Believes in prasing and supporting others
Has a great, kind, and fun loving personality.

Sally Nigel and bernard...1997

Hello Form6

2010-03-14T07:20:00.000-07:00

Hello form 6.. we gonna have quite a journal together.. hehe.. two years down the road taking stpm..

haiz.. this is God will.. may His will be done and not mine.. challenge ahead bring it on

Like A firework

2010-03-10T23:15:00.000-08:00

Like a firework, once the fire starts burning and you just can wait for the wick to finish burning and just to see what happens to the firework.

every second it burns, the more nervous you get. And deep down you know there's only two things that will happen.. either the firework explode into flying colours or you end up burning yourself..

Yes. this is how it felt today, while we waiting for our result. The atmosphere was so intense and we know its either good and we will be happy or we will be sad and disappointed if the fireworks do not work, and backfired.

Well, what happened to me was, my firework didnt work. There wasnt a single spark that happened. so yea.. i was kinda neutral about what i got laa.. haha.. but in conclusion

Isiah 58:5-8 says that God has a plan beyond our imagination for all of us. Big fireworks, or if it doesnt work, or if it backfired.. so get fired up for God.

MARCH 11

2010-03-09T05:53:00.000-08:00

The turning point of my life..

This is the junction where i decide whether i going to form 6 or i shall go on persuade my dream.. wait wat dream?? nobody agrees with wat im doing.. even myself.. i also dun know wat to do.. zzz.. as if i can go persuade my dream.. nobody seems to care..

is it just me or i just feel the world is just very dark... zzz.. run away from this town..

Thanks

2010-03-09T05:31:00.000-08:00

Thank you for blaming me for shits

Thank you for digging up the past

Thank you for making me feel like i'm a piece of shit

Thank you for making yourself so right when you yourself know you're not

Thank you for making me feel i'm not worthy enough

Thank you for spoiling my night just before my undang test

THank you for relating every little small thing as tough it was my fault

Thank you for rubbing it

So wats next huh??

Still want me thank you for tomorrow night that you gonna give me a rough time just before my result day

I cant take it anymore..

I tried talking to you

but did you hear me out.. NO you just go on and on rubbing it in..

Im nt perfect you know..

zzz...

the sad part is not the scolding.. it is when i'm not in fault and you just dont care and put the blame on me when you doesn't even have to care...

Based on a true story

2010-03-08T00:21:00.000-08:00

Have anyone once asked you this before? If i and MR.X felt into the ocean, who would you saved? Well, this is based on real life story.. Dont really know the detailed story but i think the meaning is still there..

A pastor giving a sunday sermon suddenly decided to give a story:

'Church, once a upon a time, there was a young Christian boy who decided to go out with his friend for fishing at a river nearby their house. Something happen causes both of them fell into the river. Neither of them can swim and both of them started to shout and asked for help. The boy's dad came and saw what happened but the problem was that he could only saved one of the boys. Is whether he saves his own son and leave his son's friend to die. Without wasting anytime, he jumped into the river and saved the boy's friend and he left his son behind and the river just bought his son away.And that was the last time, he ever see his son again. (means the son died laa)

Yes, the boy father chose the his son's friend over his own son. Why?? His wife wanted an explanation. The father said... 'I know that our son have went back to be with our Father in heaven, but this boy here, have not came to know the Lord yet, and because of that, I cant let this boy died without experiencing the touch from God.'

After the pastor said this story, everybody kept quiet, deeply in their heart thinking.. 'yea rite, this is just a story, but i don't think in real life anyone will do this'

And the pastor continue: 'Church, I'm the boy that got saved in the story'

It only takes one wrong word to break our relationship,
But why it often requires One life
for us to reconcile with the one with love??

My another first time

2010-03-06T04:57:00.000-08:00

I went to theme park is time square ytd!!!hehe.. Imy first there.. LOL.. me so happy..
the roller coaster and the spining thing was awesome.. the after effect of the spin was also awesome.. I just cant stop going to toilet after every spinning thing and let my lumch out.. Of coz.. thank you jaclyn for buying me the ticket (yes, a girl bought me ticket.. :( ) To truly describe the ride there.. this song should explain it la

But during the roller coaster, wen it reach the highest point.. i felt like i had nothing to depend on, and it was exciting yet thrilling.. i felt like i was flying.. God... i want to fly one day... like really fly... into the blue sky and undefined gravity... and just fall down

I know you guys care

2010-02-26T22:20:00.000-08:00

Does this sound familiar

Dont sleep so late laa

Dont play so much dotA la..

Dont be so rude to your mother la..

Dont so bad la..

Dont simply waste your money la..

Dont go out so much la..

Dont so lazy la..

Dont like this la.. Dont like that la

Surprisingly, it didnt come from my MUM, it come from my frens.. LOL... Speechless

emoooo..XD

2010-02-26T21:33:00.000-08:00

some how this make sense..

A wise quote from PhD Gary chan: Starting to emo le, emo le jiu sad, sad le jiu slp, slp le wake up jiu donno what happened liao.

haha.... this is not happening to me (if you belief la), just suddenly feel like posting it..

Yes. im back

2010-02-23T05:54:00.001-08:00

So, I survived another CNY.. hehe.. currently gt touched by the recent the valentine daay show.. A show so wrong but some how it speaks to me.. Hehe.. working on a new script now.. so yea.. Im fine guys.. no worries!!

COMPLAINTS

2010-02-16T07:12:00.000-08:00

Hey there, yes im still gonna complaint about cny!! honestly, is not a very nice of celebraion for me la.

And wat's wrong with her, i mean, u were there and you're putting the blame on me. You saw he was bullied but you didnt give a shit. And wen it went missing you blaming me. Shouting at me.. Think you're so right, bringing up the story from the past, making assumption about the future.. wtc lah..

Haiz.. I really cant take this.. can i just let it go... pass it on

leechunyuen26@yahoo.com

2010-02-16T01:14:00.000-08:00

CNY boredness

2010-02-15T08:04:00.000-08:00

Another reason Why i hate CNY

2010-02-14T21:44:00.000-08:00

She really know how to pick me off.. Like totally!! ish.. Eh hello, i cant teach you everything in one shot rite.. Wateva la.. just want to get back home soon!!

The way of an adult

2010-02-14T04:43:00.000-08:00

Sometimes the way adukts act are hard to fathom but their reason are always easy to figure out.

Take today as an example,

My parents decided to go to my mum grandmother's place to visit her mum.. (duh) I didnt want to follow so i stayed in my auntie's place. So i stayed there since 10 am and i online, and facebook and just surf the internat lahh.. special thanks to people who chat me through my boredness.

Ok.Everything was fine till dinner time, they didnt show up AGAIN. They didnt bother to call me, text me or wat so ever shit. Untill i ask my brother to call my mum. Then only she said she's not coming out for dinner. (erm hello, i'm stuck in this hse for the whole day and you not coming to pick me up) WTC?? I mean you not joining us for dinner, u dont bother to give me a call.. Wtc is wrong with them??

I know la they want to have dinner with her mum but at least not the last minute notice lahh..Like seriously. How am i suppose to explain to my aunt.. (erm, aunt, mum is still in her mum's place, u need to babysit me and my brother for a little longer. Sorry...)

SIGh... Parents...

IS CNY AND VALENTINE DAY

2010-02-13T19:44:00.000-08:00

erm.. Is suppose to be a happy day today.. well it is la.. At least i get peace and quiet and everything looks fine.. no fight so far.. hehe... So everybody.. ROAR-mance

CNY- crappy nonsense year

2010-02-12T21:30:00.000-08:00

Its CNY again, A season to emo for me!!
Haih, sien lo..
My dad can't seem to control his doses of anger
Mother couldn't tolerate with him
Brother don't know how to control his mouth
Coming back to ipoh can't seem to be any much help,
infact it seems to make this work
I thought, cny suppose to make family united again
But obviousy not for me
This suck this really do
I find shelther in the house of my aunty
Where it was filled with idol
But why cant it be,
In my grandfather's place
where poster of bible verses is in everyplace
Not only that,
I thought the house of God should be a place of rest
But some how,
in the midst of the conflicts,
everytime i seek the face of god
i felt peace and calmness.
BE still and know I'm God.
Thats what He says
So with everything i am, i'm giving back to You

I'm home

2010-02-12T08:32:00.000-08:00

Yes, i'm home!! Is so hot back here.. My God.. It feel like home..

I haven't tasted prosperity burger man... haiz

Did anybody miss me?? Er.. i know you don't, but just admit you do..

Anyway, RBS was really good and instead of life changing i got a life style.. hehe.. for real

Yes, subang still feels like subang, but is as tough i have changed.. Is like si tenggang's homecoming.

But anyway, I didn't really want to come back tough but at the same time, it felt good to come home too.Yes, I'm still having the same shit problem, and i still need to face it. But somehow, i feel better now, like just now, my parents was just fighting, i was just totally calm. Previously i had parents argue-ing fobia. So yea, I just feel better, as tough someone was there to protect me..

ANYWAY, is just good to be home la!!

4th week of bible school

2010-01-30T21:59:00.000-08:00

Honestly, this bible school is getting crazier. God's presence is moving in this school. Tears are been shed, and again He wiped it all away.

Holy ghost is breaking the heart that is long harden by the nature of this world. Breaking the wall of our heart and definatly it hurts.

The almighty creator is asking all of us, to surrender the key of asour heart to him?? Are you willing??

All i know is, is getting harder and harder to breathe!!

Half way through It

2010-01-16T22:28:00.000-08:00

I survived Residential Bible School yo.. one day three sermons wei.. One thing if i have to describe about RBS is that it require you to think alot.. zzz.. i hate thinking.. but so far it has been fun.. my life is challenge very dofferently.. haha.. i just don't know where to start.. but see you guys soon yea..

HAppy New Year

2010-01-01T04:07:00.000-08:00

So it's been a year....

No rejection

2009-12-31T00:32:00.000-08:00

Well as far as most of you guys know, i'm currently working as an education consultant in the social network.. Aka.. the score A thing la... haha..

One of the main selling point in this job is nobody says no to education. Well, technically true la, cause parents are willing to cut down on going outside and eat just to save up for tuition. Some parents willing to work OT just to save up half a million to sent their child overseas to study..

But at the same time, nobody says no to money too. So in order to get them to agree to join my little network, i must convince them that education is more important than $$. Simply because investing money in education will pay back more.. Hehe..

I don't know what i'm talking about la.. But 1 thing for sure la.. all this knowledge and wealth will not last. And you cant bring it to grave so why is it so dam important?

mother.. zzz

2009-12-29T06:13:00.000-08:00

if there is one wish i cpuld have is stop my mum nagging.. zzz.. like seriously.. no offend but is really wat i think mah..

Its been A while

2009-12-28T04:56:00.001-08:00

Dear nobody,

Im sorry i haven't been blogginf for a while. Lol, but as if anyone reads it too.. Well, wateva it is. At least i'm baxk rite... FL

So i got a story to tell you but you might hear it before, but just listen la..

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The young boy rush to his dad., 'Dad, i want my half of the property, and i want to leave this house.' 'But why?' the father asked. 'Isn't your elaun enough for you? wat is it that you want a new car?? But you change your car every month.. Or are you in debt?' The father was confuse by the child demand.

'No' says the child. 'I'm sick of being at home. I want adventure, i want to see the real world out there.'

'But cant you just go jungle tracking or play bungee jumping or something else.' Says the father. 'why do you leave me'

'No dad, You don't understand.' And the father and child just go on exchanging word.

'If this is wat you want son, i could only ask God blessing to go with you wherever you go' He took his cheque and gave him his property. 'Thank you father, i'll come back to visit you once a while.'

And so the son took off, he spent his money on the casino. Having many many girls by he side. He drinks all day and all night. And there came the recession, and he didnt have enough money to even but food for himself.. He was then put to charge of a pig farm.. and all he could think of now is just of his home

"Son, can you please check the letter box." The father asked the his older child. "No letter today, dad" answered the son. "Ok, follow me to the post office later, myabe there us some technical error."

"Dad, can you give up on him already?? Brother have long forgetten about us. If he does, he would called us already." The dad was furious " How could you say such word? He is stills part of the family, you own brother "

"Part of the family? If he was part of the family he wouldn't let you sit next to telephine all day and night, waiting for him to call. Sleeping outside the balcony, waiting for him to come home rite??" says the older sons.

"for goodness sake father, forget about him already"

the father remain silent, but in his mind. He was patiently waiting for his son to Come Home

3 type of people in this world

2009-12-06T05:25:00.000-08:00

Some one wise once said.. there is 3 type of people in this world

The people makes thing happen
The people who see things happen
The people that wondered what happened...

I wondered which one i am....

It's been almost a year

2009-12-04T03:15:00.000-08:00

I remember i started of this year by goin to DU rally.. and Uncle Jason told me do we really mean what we sing?? haiz.. it really hit me.. do i really mean what i say... z

Wats the point?

2009-11-29T01:39:00.000-08:00

Wats the point of life if is like a uno stacko?? There's no need to continue because everytime you build it, and play it will just fall off... I mean of cause every time you built it back, it will be a strong and solid block. But then, everybody just want a piece of me and the burden of top of me is getting bigger and heavier. And till a certain point i will just fall and break into a million pieces..

Im still blogging

2009-11-27T05:47:00.000-08:00

i hopeless ad la... Half way thru spm and im still in cc.. no hope ad la.... hehe...

One more month

2009-11-25T04:20:00.000-08:00

Yesh.. Is half way through SPM.. haha.. you know you have to wake up dam early for SPM.. and midnite cat like me have to wake up dam early..

I guess this is why they said is

SPM-Sarapan Pagi Malaysia

Need to wake up early morning for that paper.. Brain also haven't wake up..
Haha.. i know i am

SPM- Student Paling Malas

Haiz.. SPM is kinda good now.. I can do the papers!! haha..Really la praise God for that.. I really don't derserve this blessing.. So yea... Hehe... Its one more month to chritmas!!

I really dont know why he didnt win..

all it needed was that one sip.. AS bad as it sounds, it felt really good. Really really good.. It was as tough my pain was gone.. But now my lung ache and it just a matter of time before the addiction strikes back... Shh.. i really dont know why.. maybe i'm trying to prove something, but i don't know what.. Maybe i want to imitate somebody, but i don't know who..

if i can wake up tomolo

2009-11-17T04:55:00.001-08:00

Why am i not worried?

2009-11-17T03:25:00.000-08:00

Is the last 86400 seconds and continue to count down itself.. So yea.. and im not even worried bout it.

I'm not prepared for it. I know i haven't studied enough and all but still im not worrying or stress enough to give me the motivation to do so. Haiz.. Is this SPM?

Should be going home now to nerd!

Im living the last days of of my life

2009-11-10T22:31:00.001-08:00

Yes.. is the last week.. but im still here dotA-ing.. i dk wats wrong wif me wei.. Help me...

Better than me

2009-11-08T21:58:00.000-08:00

I cant fly across the seas...
I cant reach the sky and get the stars for you
No i cant run in the speed of light
NO fire, ice, nor lightning can be produced with my bare arm..
I have no rocket that bring you fly across the galaxy

Im sorry im a man with broken promises
But you're all that i need
is you i see when i close my eye
you the reason when i live. hehe..

with you.. im better than me
and is better with you

the last few days

2009-11-04T17:08:00.000-08:00

13 days.. haha...

me and you, you and me.. SPM STRESS

2009-11-02T00:10:00.000-08:00

Is 16 days left to SPM and im here blogging.. OMG.. hehe.. no mood la.. so lazy want to study anymore.. hehe... Oh i finally found the song.. GUYS, me and you.. lets face this spm together..

The final countdown to spm

2009-10-31T05:01:00.000-07:00

18 days left.. but im not worried.. wats wrong wif me?? I can tell you i was more nervous in the last few weeks of push then now.. haiz.. you got it rite.. the accident has hit me badly..

Cute girls, outstanding voice

2009-10-30T01:07:00.000-07:00

check this out... i know low quality but home production mah.. haha

A broken heart

2009-10-24T20:56:00.000-07:00

Did you know telling mum the truth is not always a good thing to do, but telling what she wants seems to be a better thing to do. But for every hole i dig, the hole just get bigger and bigger.

Speaking to somebody who doesn't understand (foolish) will only make you an idiot..

And working not for you benefit will not bring you any good (like duh..)

Don't try to care for someone you don't understand because it will only hurt the person more.

I prefer to be in jail. Where my feelings are all locked up, so cold and all freeze up. Where no love can melt it and no one could move it.

So let me run away..

Someone once told me religion was the cure to my heartache. And it was, it was beautiful at the same time pain. Pain for it is the true. For it tells me that, it will come for destruction and separation.

Oh well, who's fault was it to blame that God make the devil stronger than human. And as time draw to an end, temptation will appear more than our faith reminded. Only the determined will pull it off.. or maybe all you need is a faith of a child..

-a broken heart

All i can think of

2009-10-20T01:54:00.000-07:00

SPM 28 hari lagi.. Sure die ad.. Haiz.. 平时不烧香，临时抱佛脚

The after effect of the accident

2009-10-18T00:36:00.000-07:00

I jut very tired... I have no mood in studyin or spm anymore.. so tired... so lazy.. procrastinating, procrastination is the thief of time. but i have no time left and i'm still procrastinating, does that even make sense.

You go oo oo i go la la

2009-10-17T22:32:00.001-07:00

Haha.. so this is the song daniel been telling me about.. Untouched..

A good mail.. worth forwarding

2009-10-16T21:48:00.000-07:00

Haha.. saw shu run's blog.. and yea.. very funny! cats lover out there, this is for you.. esp.. lobak

CATS & TEENAGERS (Hope this makes you smile)

For all of you with teenagers or who have had teenagers, you probably already know
why they have a lot in common with cats:

1. Neither teenagers nor cats turn their heads when you call them by name.

2. No matter what you do for them, it is not enough. Indeed, all humane efforts are barely adequate to compensate for the privilege of waiting on them hand and foot.

3. You rarely see a cat walking outside of the house with an adult human being, and it can be safely said that no teenager in his or her right mind wants to be seen in public with his or her parents.

4. Even if you tell jokes as well as Jay Leno, neither your cat nor your teen will ever crack a smile.

5. No cat or teenager shares your taste in music.

6. Cats and teenagers can lie on the living-room sofa for hours on end without moving, barely breathing.

7. Cats have nine lives. Teenagers live as if they did.

8. Cats and teenagers yawn in exactly the same manner, communicating that ultimate human ecstasy--a sense of complete and utter boredom.

9. Cats and teenagers do not improve anyone's furniture.

10. Cats that are free to roam outside sometimes have been known to return in the middle of the night to deposit a dead animal in your bedroom. Teenagers are not above that sort of behavior.

Remember above all else, put out the food and do not make any sudden moves in their direction. When they make up their minds, they finally will come to you for some affection and comfort; and it will be a triumphant moment for all concerned.

how am i?

2009-10-14T23:05:00.000-07:00

Like dat lo.. Hehe.. start to go back to school already.. taking school gerak gempur and exams...

Suppose to remove my stitches today, but don't know why Doctor dowan to remove it.. I think it haven't fully recover. So yea, now need to out so lotion in my mouth some more. Zzz.

But besides that everything is good la. Business as usual. SPM is near. But i so lazy nowadays. Hehe.. Oh yea...

If you free this saturday please come and attend this:

Is an event by teens r us and all your money will be donated to CMCT an charity orphanage in india. Hehe.. So yea, come check out this sat and ss19 , 7oclock at night!
Don't come alone, bring your friend. Two are better than one!

Have i mention?

2009-10-08T20:00:00.000-07:00

I have stitches on my mouth, causing me pain when i laugh.. haiz... what have i done to derserve this.. watching comedy is a really like watching some korean drama... 笑到哭！！

So, what actually happened to me??

2009-10-08T19:06:00.000-07:00

Ok. I know everybody is panic ing about me and my health after the car crash. So i'm here to let you guys know what happened lo.

On Tuesday, i was going on to Taipan lo, then from USJ 11 i was about to cross to taipan using my bicycle. When i'm about to switch my lane, i put up my right hand to switch lane, by the time , i cross over, all i remember was i got hit by the car. and i was on the floor. All i could see was blood, then, the traffic all of a sudden just slow down, the lady came down and start to ask me how was i, but i think she saw blood flowing down my face. She got panic and start to apologise to me like mad woman. So, i asked her to chilled and asked her to let me called my mum and sent me to clinic.

From, clinic the doctor there said i'm too serious for them, they cant take me in, so i got admitted to hosital with Uncle Kah Wan's help (church member). So reach there , wait there for an hour just to get my wound clean (malaysia system mah). Long story cut short, i was then sent for surgery in my face then got home, phone rang till no battery, lolz. And made police report and all lo.

How am i? I quite good la, just very lazy to go back to school. hehe..

Hows the finacial? So far, i got the school PA (insurans) to back me up, still waiting for the driver to show up, and propose a proper solution on this case.

Hows the case? The sergeant said i was at fault for breaking the rule of 3(2)(b). For what i care i don't know, maybe getting a lawyer to sue her.

Why so cruel? Well, she is been avoiding me ever since we bumped to each other in the police station. Then yea lo.. Call her dowan pick up and all.. Haiz.. Want ask her how is she doing also cannot.zz

What gone? JOshua's Bicycle smashed, my glasses, my 3-days old phone, my date with my xin, my handsome face, my motivation to study, my paycheck, my ability to play basketball, my freedom to go out. MY this and my that la.... haixxxxxxxxxxx

Whos fault is it?

haha.. i goin re qoute it

"Neither this man(blind person) nor his parents sinned," said Jesus, "but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life.

Come on guys, God is real, I'm not joking, these past few days, i just rest upon his peace and honestly i desire nothing more for his kingdom to come.... Have you experienced his perfect love? I urging you.. GO and look for for Him.

oh this is how i look like now.. They say is piggy

SPM- Sudah Pasti Mati

2009-10-05T06:05:00.000-07:00

getting too stressed with physic? Check this out!

Not good enough

study = x fail........(1)

x study = fail.......(2)

(1)+(2)

Study + x Study = X fail + Fail

Study (1 + x) = Fail (x+1)

Study (1 +X)/(x+1) = Fail

Study + Fail

Lesson to learn

2009-10-05T05:26:00.000-07:00

Basketball court is not a place place to lepas geram. too many innocent people there. LOL. Move along, chun yit !

maybe should try dancing

or simply love.. hehe

Grace

2009-10-01T06:17:00.000-07:00

The defination of Grace:

1. elegance or beauty of form, manner, motion, or action.
2. a pleasing or attractive quality or endowment.
3. favor or good will.
4. a manifestation of favor, esp. by a superior: It was only through the dean's grace that I wasn't expelled from school.
5. mercy; clemency; pardon: an act of grace.
6. favor shown in granting a delay or temporary immunity.

At the same time, is also my beloved pet sister/ friend/ i dont know what la..

Grace Tham Mun Yee
and guess what she used to be from Grace assembly
*christian la.. duh

Anyway, she is not what i'm trying to say today. Amazing grace goes like this

'amazing grace how sweet the sound, that save a wretch like me'
-i forgot the author's name- my apologies

and Pr.Sandra once said as well,

'when your sin us revealed, God is not condemning you, but God is pouring His grace upon you.'

-Pr.Sandra Chin,ACTS church'

Well, i wasn't being a very good boy recently and i got busted. And this was the thought that came to my mind. I was really all over it when i got busted, and my mind was in a mess, i dont know what i was thinking, and suddenly everything became blank. I don't find this Grace very sweet or comforting.

then after a long day of thinking, it is and it was the grace of God because, God reveal your sins now, so you might repent now and not repent when end days come! Yes, it is painful now, but it is not for long. But if i never repent, the pain would be for eternity.

I'm sorry, my blog have became very religious out of a sudden but i guess this is really what i think mah. so yea!

I'm not a gennie

2009-09-29T07:50:00.000-07:00

You know.. I'm just exhausted la.. Exhausted of giving my best. All i ask is what i deserve.. Is it too much to ask.. Why is it that i have to face the consequence of some other random people's mistake. Huh?? Is hurts.. I giving my best and my all.. No doubt and this is what i got? Injustice.. That just prove karma wrong.. hehe..

Not bad is not always good enough... And all i have to offer is not enough to satisfy your need.. so wat the f you want from me?????????? haiz.... Am i born for this?? Is this what reality going to taste like? the pressure is crumpling me...

My 111th post

2009-09-28T06:07:00.000-07:00

Haha.. this is random la.. But i was thinking of this song since last night.. so yea.. Cause everybody try to put love on the line and everybody feels a broken heart sometime... Teddy geiger..

My God he was, he is , and going to be..

2009-09-26T06:07:00.000-07:00

So, I went to voices, SJ AOG youth production. Overall, it was a sucess, we got free starbucks and sate so yea.. And this particular song just it me la.. Aaron Shust.

crazy or cool

2009-09-25T00:17:00.001-07:00

Just looking through the blog i've been following and i saw this.. SPEECHLESS

hello friday!

2009-09-24T23:33:00.000-07:00

Hehe.. So it's friday already.. So fast. Haiz.. There goes my holiday. HAlf of it was in working, sleeping in odd hours.. ANd maybe in cc.. None and none was in studying.. Haiz.. so unproductive.. hehe.. Anyway, this is not wat im trying to say here..

Do you realise the pattern when you're studying you wait for holiday, and during holiday, it so bored you just cant wait for school to open. hehe.. Oh.. then when you work, everyday you work, you wait for work to end, then, go home eat sleep and then go back to work. You do that every day and you just go on wishing it's friday so for the weekend. And when's it's monday you hopes it's friday. Hehe.. Then for that week, you wait untill end of the month for the paycheck. Then this will go on and on till you retired..

Hehe.. if you look it at a larger picture, when you're born, you wish you died faster so you can be born again.. Nvm.. hehe

check this out

2009-09-24T05:42:00.000-07:00

the sweetest song on earth for lover seems to be a insulting song.. you see ar.

When You Say Nothing At All

verse

 It's amazing how you, can speak right to my heart

 all the words you say so insulting it hurt through my heart  Without saying a word, you can light up the dark

u must be a vampire, your skin is so pale, i can see u in the dark  Try as I may I could never explain

that time, i dun belief in ghost  What I hear when you don't say a thing

chorus

 The smile on your face, lets me know that you need me
From the way you smile i know u need my blood
 There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me  Your eyes is so scary that, if i leave you, you will hunt me down for my blood
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall

you wont let me died, cause you want my blood all for yourself

 You say it best, when you say nothing at all

But, when you shut up, it's the best thing you ever done.

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
All day long, people been gossip about us But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
when you stand next to me, you scare everybody away Old Mr Webster could never define
the old stupid uncle will never understand
What's being said between your heart and mine

why i am so scare of you

so yea.. hehe

5354- I writing in code

2009-09-24T04:38:00.000-07:00

Fyi people, is just another emo blog. But cause my blog is an easy acess to all public so everything i written down here is a code. So have fun breaking it. Here i go

Time is something we do now own, it wait for no man and tide, so if you believe in it dont waste anymore time in it, dont doubt. Go for it. I dont know what i'm talking about now, but this i know, all you need is faith and the door will be opened. But of cause, it must be God's will la.. Duh (insya-Allah). Anyway, did you know, if it is meant to happen, nothing can take it away, and if it is not meant to happen, nothing can make it happen. But please remeber we're living in a world where the sky is the limit, well, i mean people already landed on moon already so, the sky is no more the limit. I really don't know what i'm trying to prove here, but all i know, in this earth, in this reality world, nothing seems to be impossible. In this world, with human wisdom and determination, nothing is unachieveable. Yes, Force of nature is there, and at times, man cant stop it but, Man when they unite, they are the FORCE of nature, well yea, look at them, having all the factory and cars all around the world, their forcing the earth to go for global warming. ( haha.. its a joke)

This is what we're seeing now, the human will power. Hehe.. Overcome all things.. Hehe.. They tend to forget all things point back to the creator. Did you know, at thi svery momment when you sit here and read this post of mine, it was all part of God's plan. Did you know, he set times the for every left from the tree to fall, and he decided which route you going to take to school everyday. But you see, now I'm 17, fire for God and God Himself is always real, But soon i'm going to live in a world where, reality will erase God from my life. God will just be a sunday religion. And like it or not, in reality God will be so hard to be found, cause with the shit everybody going to go through.. LOL.. God will just evaporate and cigarrette will seems to be a better way to relief stress. And like it or not, cigarrete (esp Dunhill) is a pleasure for many people. Haha.. i remeber working in Mcd, lolz.. easily 70% people there smokes during their break. even some of the friendly imigran workers. Haiz...

To sum it up. someone wise once said. In reality money is God..

but because i know it the truth and the tricks

so i shall not worship it...

Im really not ready to leave this 17 la... Im not ready to livve in reality.. honestly i really scared i will be f***ed up k.... Haiz.... God, help me!

This suck

2009-09-21T11:03:00.000-07:00

Haiz.. I thought of coming to cc to chat de.. but then.. The speaker wont work.. The facebook cant open chat and the msn wont open.. like totally wat th ecrap.. so sien..

Second and third day at Mcd....

2009-09-21T10:28:00.000-07:00

So, i survived cooking all the patties with no customer complaint.. Praise the LOrd.. Hehe.. hoes was it... it was very fun.. I mean the imigran are really friendly.. Hehe.. I thought them chinese and they tought me nepal toungues.. I sttach their back, they stracth mine.. All the time working la.. Hehe.. Especially, midnight, nobody will visit Mcd.. It is fun la.. well, that is the second day in Mcd day..

Well, ytd as in two hours back yesterday, started rough.. Hehe.. i came in and there was a malay dude who came in while i was cooking the patty and start to scold me like for wearing the wrong glove.. And today too, i finally met the manager that msg me at 5.30.. Haiz.. It started rough and i had to take care of my station all by myself.. Hehe... Very very hard.. Whole time was asking God to give me strength.. Then, after 3 hours of working, suddenly that manager again came to me forced me to take my break.. sien.. I was like dowan la.. i wan to break with my friend.. He insitedd me to take it den no choice lo.. Haiz such a pain wei.. Then, after working with the patties, suddenly im been kickec to do lobby worker by the manager.. Finally, one good news from the manager.. Hehe.. Hallelujah.. It was very fun and less stressful la.. Then from lobby worker i became backup counter.. hehe.. Thats what i finallt wanted.. Yea.. then till now lo.. in cc... blogging

HOwever,i need to be back at Mcd in 11 hours time.. Siau ar.. dun even have time to sleep.. hehe...So yea.. Good night people..

Btw, 20 sept was Kino Kelvin's birthday. He is an International support officer working in Klang Jaya.. Haha.. so yea.. Happy birthday old fella..

Experience A Miracle 2009

2009-09-19T02:32:00.000-07:00

After 8 weeks of planning. The day have finally arrived.. MAjlis restu 2009.. It was very fun.. Although yes, the pressure and tension was building up, but i guess the spirit was always wif us. Go there around 8.30.. Then wait for ACTS church to open.. lol.... Haha.. quickly we met benji to help us with the set up.. he was nice person la, and a lot of patience, haha.. cause this time is our usj4 first time do such a big event.. so yea, the team was very new to this stuff. hehe

Anyway, just to let you know, everything was good.. The response was good, the food was good, the people were good.. and most important of all, the word was good.. It was form John9.. It was just a story of healing of a blind man.. He came out with two conclusion..

You were made by God to show up and show off!

God and miracle is to be experinced and not to be explained...

And yea.. It really was like whoa.. Did you know, when God breathe into Adam, then only he had his life.. So did you know, every breath we breath nowadays is actually God. You can wake up everyday and still be breathing, and thats already a miracle. Can you explained why you didnt stop breathing huh?? hehe.. I cant....

And this thought just hid my mind few hours ago.. Why must the child be in the middle of his parents problem. Why is he getting the pain of the parenst fights.. what have he done to deserve such a pain?? was is his fault? was is the parents fault??

and jesus answer was:

³"Neither this man nor his parents sinned," said Jesus, "but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life.

Is that beautiful or wat??

First day at Mcd

2009-09-19T01:36:00.000-07:00

I struggled so much to wake up this morning wei.. After last nights rally, who wont dead.. okla maybe not all, but after the installation and movie.. hehe.. but i did manage to wake up..

But then wen i woke up, it rains.. Sien, then asked my mum to fetch lo.. she nag and nag and nag all da way there... zz..

haha.. reach there.. the stupid manager not there.. fyi, the manager msg me at 5.30 in da morning asked me go training.. siau one le..

Anyway, i reached at eight then worked lo.. hehe.. first i learned how to do muffins.. Not cupcake muffins but sausage muffins and egg muffins and big breakfasts.. Very fun de.. Den lunch hour i do all da burgers lo.. very fun de.. hehe.. i felt i was spongebob.. hehe

Then, the senior workers there are all imigran.. I remeber one particular Adam.. His quite cute and he can speak english.. not bad at all... then here comes the horrible part.. the oils they used to fry the patty only changed once a day.. Yacks...

Then, there is a machine to cook the beef patties.. is cool la.. But there just a layer of very thicks plastic used to absorb the heat from the patty.. lol.. no wonder their food taste like plastic...

and one more thing, most of the cold product in mcd is package with plastic.. haha.. i guess it gives more platics flavor to a plastic food.. LOL.. and they have around 15 bags of garbage per day.. With all the polystrene and paper... like duh... and one more thing their cookin machine is the coolest cookin machine i ever since.. Is like wen you deep fried something, you can set the timer for it to fried.. And for other food as well, all has it own function and wen the food is done, it will make noise and tel is done.. heheh

But did you know how much energy is ised the sound, the heat, the notification of the machine.. and is not only one, there is 5 or 6 or even more.. not including ice-cream machine.. and this is only one restaurant... how many Mcd restaurant just in M'sia.. Siau one.. hehe

But still, overall, its was fun i mean.. doing those burger.. the chaos ness in the kitchen.. and trying to learn how to cook from imigran.. hehe... wonderful la..

Less Than One day left

2009-09-17T05:56:00.000-07:00

Haha.. less than one more day, CF of SMK USJ4 will make history man. Hehe.. After years of being underground and having cf meetings in Bicycle shade. Tomorrow we are going to have our very own cf rally wei. Haha.. Well, i actually make a pledge this year to bring change to my school and cf and also to score stratight ace for SPM la..

Well, at least one of it is done... Hehe.. now spm is left.. haiz.. 54 more days left.. Haiz.. oh yea, bout that event

Time:1300-1630

Venue: ACTS church, summit hotel

Date: 18/09/09

Speaker: Pr.Andy, youth pastor of ACTS teens

Dress code: Casual, (preferable school shirt and no jeans!)

Entrance fee: RM5.oo

Lunch will be served!

Yea.. its happening in few more hours time.. so yea, come on man, food is served, you sure want to come one right?? Hehe.. since we're talking about cf.. i was just talkin to one of the cf president around the klang valley. Well, his a bit unique la.. His a catholic but he is leading a buncg of non-catholic christian in his school. So yea, i'm really respect him la.. So yea.. After askin his permission, i got the approval of him to post our conversation on my blog la.. Who readi t anyway??

[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
tomolo gt school?
MR.X says:
siapa ni ah..
oh
nope tmr no schl^.^
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:

then
crash to our rally la
MR.X says:
the new msn format.. super hard to see
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
haha
MR.X says:
yaa was thinking of that
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
yes
hehe
MR.X says:
what time again?
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
1300-1630
Mr.X says:
will consider^.^
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
ok
coo
cool*
hey
dun minds me askin
do you attd cck?
MR.X says:
nope
y saw me?
lols i had to go sunday schl
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
i thought i saw you durin confirmation
MR.X says:
but never attend mass for few years
yeah u did
u were there?
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
erm,
i saw the group photo
so
you're a catholic la
??
MR.X says:
mm i don't like the word catholic
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
haha
no
MR.X says:
they make it sound like it's so different from christians
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
dun get me wrong
im actually very impress with you
cause you;re leading a cf which have a different culture wif you
MR.X says:
lool
haha thank you
i'm smiling now
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:

Mr.X says:
erm ya it's strange to come from catholic church and serve the cf
but i think it's good too, to come from catholic background cos i can see both sides of the coin
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
yea,
i was havin a shock wen i saw your pic
Mr.X says:
i not prejudice to either side
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
haha
either do i
MR.X says:
lol? izit so strange being catholic?
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
nola
i actually respect catholic for their diclipline de
haha.. but you do know there is a 'silent war' between the catholic and other christian ryte?
MR.X says:
of course i know
that's what frustrates me
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
nt the religion but the believers
MR.X says:
yea.
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
haha.. maybe its a calling for you to stop it
Mr.X says:
after confirmation.. it's so sad to see so many catholic youths disappear from churches
almost all my cousins did that
yaa! that's what i gonna do
one day i want to see catholic church be a partner for subang rally
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
haha
sure
but wat i hear from one of the catholic church
evangelism is not a main culture of catholic?
is it?
Mr.X says:
well. from what is being preached in church, yea
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
haha
Mr.X says:
catholics are way more gung-ho at that
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
so to partner wif rally
Mr.X says:
but catholics misunderstand that
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
a but da weird ryte?
??
im listening
Mr.X says:
they see christians as crazy people who want to 'save' people if not they end up burning in hell
thankfully,.got a few mature catholics who can look past prejudices
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
yea
'cult' ma
Mr.X says:
my aunt.. would be really angry if she knew i'm christian
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
catholic is christian ,a
Mr.X says:
but now her son also goes for cf and he tells her everything
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
ma*
Mr.X says:
and while she doesn't let him go to christian church, she has opened up to the idea of cf and all
at the same time.. christians sometimes misunderstand catholics
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
lol
Mr.X says:
they think they worship idols and statues
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
i agreed
Mr.x says:
haha. once even mr. ***** talked about that in a mtg
i felt he was a bit insensitive abt that
yes, even mr *****
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
haha
Mr.X says:
if catholic and christian just took the time to share with each other a bit.. haiz
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
i trying quite hard not to la
Mr.X says:
but of cuz muz find a good catholic la
i got one friend a.. he's an altar boy in church
the fella who wears robes and helps the priests
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
cause i belief if we're praying towards the same God, then, the ultimate purpose is achieve
Mr.X says:
but in school.. haiz
yaaa!
*high five*
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
lol.
actually, i gt this experience la
i got a friend who was a catholic bcoz of his family is a catholic
then i bought him to one of my church event and his accepted christ
bt then the following day he found out that it wasnt a catholic church then he deny that he accepted already
haiz.. it was really
then, i went into deep thoughts about this catholic and christian things la
Mr.X says:
haha.
in catholicism, it's strange how you can go on living without accepting christ
because baptism is at birth, it's not a conscious thought that you're accepting jesus
you're just following your parents
many youths actually don't care
because even in sunday school, it stresses on theory only
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
i realise
i find catholic is a wonderful religion, but its seems to lose its point to people nowadays, esp to youths lo
Mr.X says:
yaa i think it's cos of the leadership
right now a bunch of old dudes who's only concern is increasing the number of ppl in sunday schl
and it's monopolised by certain families
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
haha..can see that but out of cugriousity la?
till a day i sure you will have to choose one side one day
which one it wil it be?
Mr.X says:
i don't want to choose one side
cos there's only one side haha
it's one of my life ambitions to bring them together
^.^
[Ex.A.M!] The greatness hidden in me says:
whoa
kk
then go for it la
Mr.X says:
thank you haha

** Correct us if we're wrong.. BUt i guess deep down of us.. is really wat i think la.. And due to offensice issue, i choose not to reveal the identity of the person but you know who is it i hope you guys keep it yourself la k.. Because thi sjourney of his is going to have a lot of objection and disagreement and in the end.. Misery