Fuck My Life

Tomorrow's my parents anniversary.. The day to remeber the start of a new family, The start of a new begining of journey untold. But guess what, Nobody fucking's remember except for me. pfft.

Some time i wonder, what for? why do I eve have to bother giving a fuck on such a day, reminding both side of the parents and asking them to put down their difference and actually give a shit to both side wishing Hapy Anniversary Dear.

Fuck this Shit.. Why do i even care. I myself can barely last a conversation , and with my mum for 5 minutes, and while everyone else can talk for hours and hours long. Why? And what can i do this fix this?

Why is everyone so cold already? have love gone cold.. Christmas.. offt.. The family season of cele fucking celebration and exchanging gift.. one friend of mine actually bother to post christmas card to her family member. Me? I dont even know whether i will call them that morning..

The hell is going wrong with me.. It seem so weird, that everyone misses their family so much, and they could go on and on about how their parents teases each other, and how their parents first met. While me? My parents got married coz they accidently fuck, and had me.

FML.. really.. Family first. I will never be able to say that, not in this lifetime. what is it that gone so wrong? where is the love? I want it so bad.... I rather exchange wtv skils, friends, and potential in me, and be a fucking retard just so i can have the family warmth and love. I really want to taste it. But nah..

Cibai.. they say is fun, that im able to live by myself, being indepedant, and eat out all day long. trust me, right now, i just want to rely on my family so bad......