I cant begin to describe in words what I feel right now.

So many question in my head but yet, after every time i thought i searched the answer, it stills seem it doesn't fall into the picture. Not trying to brag but the fact people here just don't fucking get me. Or am i the one that don't get them. Whichever this place is just plain weird and all out place. However, is still a place to escape from the life in KL. this island is suppose to be a new start, well, it is. But people here are different, they seem to think differently. They adore problem in life. But yet, when they have it, they just complaint and hate their life.

Am i suppose to clean their mess? Is that a Christian way doing things.

Sigh.. nyway, those are crap. What true-ly bother me is actually this girl i like, she is close to exactly how i want her to be. A new start, someone i could turn on too. But dam, she is being after by so many guys. Why?

And damn, the vow of staying single.. is not making things easy. If i do not make any move, she will be gone, my one true friend. If i do, i break my vow.

FML. God why did you ship me here.