U know those moments when you just could completely relate to a song, like as those it speaks your exact feelings out.. I think i had one of the moment today.


I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember,
The people we used to be...
It's even harder to picture,
That you're not here next to me.

You say it's too late to make it,
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights,
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed,
Still stuck in that time,
When we called it love,
But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist,
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit
[Video:] One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.
[Album:] One more stupid love song, I'll be sick

Oh, you turned your back on tomorrow
'Cause you forgot yesterday.
I gave you my love to borrow,
But you just gave it away.

You can't expect me to be fine,
I don't expect you to care
I know I've said it before,
But all of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights,
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed,
Still stuck in that time,
When we called it love,
But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist,
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit
[Video:] One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.
[Album:] One more stupid love song, I'll be sick
Now I'm at a payphone

[Wiz Khalifa]
Man, fuck that shit
I'll be out spending all this money
While you're sitting round wondering
Why it wasn't you who came up from nothing,
Made it from the bottom
Now when you see me I'm stunning,
And all of my cars start with a push of a button

Telling me the chances I blew up
Or whatever you call it,
Switch the number to my phone
So you never could call it,
Don't need my name on my show,
You can tell it I'm ballin.

Swish, what a shame could have got picked
Had a really good game but you missed your last shot
So you talk about who you see at the top
Or what you could have saw but sad to say it's over for.
Phantom pulled up valet open doors
Wiz like go away, got what you was looking for
Now it's me who they want, so you can go and take
that little piece of shit with you.

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist,
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit
[Video:] One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.
[Album:] One more stupid love song, I'll be sick
Now I'm at a payphone...

21 days of SUSOM

3 weeks away from home..

Away from comfort zone, away from people loved and cared one, away from my friends, away from my car, away from my job, away from my worries, away from all the fears, away from my commitment and obligation, SUSOM was the escape plan for me to take a break from my hectic lifestyle.

*SUSOM-Scripture Union Students On Mission. A 3 week programme for school leavers for mission exposure organized by Scripture Union Peninsular Malaysia.

It defiantly wasn't something i wanted to attend, i was so comfortable with my life. I have a not too bad job for a school leaver, a group of 'kaki mamak', i enjoying my time serving in church, going out and spending time with my youth group. Everything was doing great, in fact, I was offered with so many others career opportunity. Life was just perfect. Although so, God wasn't really playing any part in my life, but why bother, life was fine.

29th Dec, 2 days before the dateline for application of SUSOM, i received a call and i was asked to participate SUSOM, my first reaction was NO. I meant what for? I was doing great with my life, 9 months breaks, this is the best time of my life. Why give a damn about this?? So, I just turn the offer down. Immediately after i hang up the phone, a strong urge came upon me and told me I should go for it.

The feeling was strong, and I just cant make up my mind, the thought of God's calling for me back in RBS ( a similiar Christian program) just cant stop haunting me, so with much persuasion and advice, i decided to attend this program.

So how was SUSOM? Well, it was a big change of lifestyle. First, I was being treated like a kid, i have a caretaker, i have to report whatever i have to do. There, was journal-ing and reporting to do, and just like RBS, there is book assignment too. But little as i dislike it, i soon to learn to enjoy doing so. I enjoyed my quiet time, every workshop and classes provided. I enjoyed the friendship i made.

But what truly changed me was the presence of God. I finally understood, why God causes certain event to happened in my life. I came to know i was more spiritual sensitivity was more strong compare to Christian, it wasn't something that i like, but God have chosen me because He knew I capable of having it. Secondly, the feeling of waking up and just can't wait to learn from God is just amazing. I cant wait to read and attend class, although i dont show it, but deeply, I really look forward for all classes. Third, I strengthen my relationship with God, life back home is great, but not once, God was in the picture except for occasionally Sunday Morning.

I been running away from God all this while, I didn't like what he arranged for me. Being from a single family, luxury was something i have to earned myself, and i had no problem doing so myself, with my own effort. I chose my to live my life the way i wanted for myself. Where's God? Where ever He is, so long he doesn't block my way, then I will have no problem with Him, and i wouldn't mind, helping Him out in his great plan whenever I'm free.

And today it finally hit me that what I've done was I backslid-ed without me knowing. But He didnt gave up on me, and instead, He's been there all this while, still waiting for me. So the calling for SUSOM was God's calling me back to Him.

#1 God spoke to me every morning through His QT(devotion and mediatation on Bible). I realized back home QT was so dry it was because i didnt took him seriously and i was so distracted by my life that I enjoyed, but now here in SUSOm, QT is the best part of the day. (Am not believing Im saying this, never was a QT person)

SUSOM resolution1 : To take QT more serious in my daily routine. No more Quiet time in the toilet. Lol

#2 God was arranging me was something greater. I often reject opportunity which requires a huge responsibility and commitment, but I often was chosen, and i really dislike it, and asked God why the burden? But in SUSOM I learned that God was preparing me to receive the gift of 'Leadership' .' Me, a leader? haha, joke of the century,' i thought, but now i looked back, the task i taken charge of.

#3 I was asked to share my testimony in an event in Ipoh, well, I totally lost count of the times I shared my testimony in public, btw, is only reading a story, no big deal, and then, 5 hours before the event, I was told, my piece of story was the only sharing of God's Word of that event that consist of 50% of non-Christians. There and then God spoke to me, He knew no matter how good i was at talking and reading, I was not able to give a good sharing, so He convicted me to ask the Holy Spirit for help, and let HS to take control. And yes, that day in a very long time, Hold Spirit took charge of me, and seeds was planted that night.

This actually reminds me of my days in school Christian Fellowship, where i was so bold and full of faith and preaching in public, because i Knew Holy Spirit will settle the everything else, so long i do my part. But now 3 years after form 5, i found out I lose faith in the Holy Spirit and learned to do things in my own effort, without God's help, not only in God's work, but everything else.

SUSOM resolution 2 : To trust Holy Spirit as much as I do, practice inviting HS in daily decision.

#4 God spoke to me through a book. Joshua Harris's STOP DATING THE CHURCH! Since form 6 started, I stop going to church, even till this very day. I was called the prodigal by the church elder, because i was missing for so long before SUSOM. But now, in this book, I learned that church was not a place of focus only for God, but is also for me. The focus is on me. Our relationship with God. God speaking directly to me through His word in Sermon. God wants me to go back to church because he wants to have a intimate relationship with me, he actually cares for me, and the church was not a place where only the one serving (pastor, elder, leaders, musician ) plays a role, but every one in the church. From the kids of sunday school to the senior citizen too.

SUSOM resolution 3 : To attend church , make CHURCH A PRIORITY

#5 Being a kid that is less fortunate, single parent, poor, under educated family, I cant experience many things that other kids already done so commonly. Going overseas for travel, seating on airplane, having good meals once in awhile, quality family time together, latest gadget, college. Even if i could, it is through many hardship, for example my car, my phone and laptop, my scholarship for college back in form 5, all this was my own effort, but even so, many people would disagree and obstacle, and is very discouraging, because sometimes, it would so close from getting what i want but then i'll still fail.

But then, God promise me so much more, if i follow him. So much fish, that my boat would sink. For example, through this mission trip, God have me a chance to seat on a plane, and travel around the world. To try different food, cultures, to meet with great people. To do things that i never thought i could within my capability.

All this while, my mindset of FTM was that it gonna be suffering, tired, worn out, no fun, no laughter only 'joy' of serving Him, which is simply 'brainwashing' people so they could go heaven. well, yes, i admit the joy is really priceless and invaluable. However i didn't want to let go of what i have already. All the hardwork i done to become who i want to be, but is in SUSOM I came to know greater things are yet to be done for me and through me.

To conclude SUSOM, i was busy being my own sandcastle that will be taken away any time by the tides, but I did not bother, because i knew Im able to build one to withstand the wave, but then God now God is asking me to join Him in building the REAL CASTLE which will not be broken down, HIS KINGDOM.

Now the question is, will i? will i let go all i have now, for Him? Well, i cant give a defiante answer now, bt i learn to let God take control of my life, let him be the lamp to my feet and the light upon my path. One step at a time, and when the time comes, He will show me the right path.

Super the movie review by ME :D

i took a day off from work today, just to chill and bought a DVD just to watch and relax. And i ended up buying this movie called SUPER.

Shows about an average joe, Frank (Rainn Wilson) being dumped by his wife and she choose to her old life of drugs addiction with a drug tycoon. Frank's wife was one the only perfect thing that has happened to him, the rest of his life of pretty much rejection and humiliation. He then decide to save her wife back fom her old ways such as confronting the tycoon, reporting to police etc, yet all fails.

The break up of his wife have depressed him so much that his fantasy of being a superhero (the chosen one) have made he to the take up the choice to fight evil, (there's this scene where he fantasize so extremly that he saw a vision from 'God's angel' to become the chosen one to fight crime) the ultimate villain of cause of the drug tycoon. And the ultimate goal was to bring her wife back from her old ways.

So, there begins his journey of fighting crime in the street. He started small, with only a suit and mask, he started to clear crime in his neighborhood with of cause up and down. With no superpowers, super gadgets or even self defense training, nothing but the will of saving her wife back and the help/sacrifice of a sidekick, Libby (Ellen Page) have finally bought her wife safely into her hands.

However, the twist in this story is at the very end of the story, where her wife and him did not live happily ever after. :( why you ask ?? After the life risking, and death of friend just to get her back, the relationship only lasted for a couple of months and that too is because out of obligation.

Sounds pretty sad huh? Well, maybe a reality check for those who are in a relationship right now, some time sacrifice that might cause a life for a relationship, might not result a lifetime relationship. But that's beside the point.

the story ended with the wife left to persuade her studies, in secondary school and college, pick up a course in psychology to help out people that have been through the same path as her and move on with a family of 4 children. She reach the highest peak of her life, being successful and happily ever after. So what about the HERO, man? He eventually move on because he understand this,

God have chose Him to save his former wife from her reckless living, and using him to give her a second chance. It is because of the blood shedding, life risking, tears and love that leave her an impact so hard to break her from her old ways. That was God's plan for him. The guy behind the scene to build a real hero (her ex-wife) to change the society.

Its funny how, we do not get the credit/reward we deserve after helping out people sometimes, and it hurts and disappoint more especially if its someone we been trying to get attention from or please, or just simply love and care about. But just because your sacrifice was not recognize, it doesnt mean it did not leave any impact on the person your offering help to. Plus , helping someone it was never about the return or the reward u will receive, it was always to help someone to achieve what is better/greater.

Feeling unappreciated lately? cheers mate, welcome to reality.The culture of society have made people to be self focus, to the extend we will not invest in anything else that doesnt benefit ourself, this is reality. But the heart of human, have made us different from others, we undefined reality. Now, if u understand what i'm trying to say here, what i'm trying to say is it doesnt really if u get fucked and screwed after trying to help someone, so long ur intention is good, it has planted a seed that will grew a tree of goodness.

wow.. post #200

Its a day before my finals, STPM. Well, frankly speaking I already given up. Why? Everyone been asking me that? Why gave up on your studies? Why have u change? Why u have become like this? What went wrong?

Honestly, really, i dont know. Well, it's not because i really have no idea, but i refuse to think about it. I really dislike thinkin, Sometimes i wished i could just be a robot, just follow instruction, there isn't choice, there's no need think.

to be continue... i promise i'll come back. Just too tired to think now

Just saw a post done by a good friend of mine, Harmony wee, and immediately i couldn't hold back my tears upon reading her post..

http://twothreeeight.blogspot.com/2011/10/daddys-girl-i-am.html

Its a really simple post, saying how much she misses her dad, and how she precious every moment she have with him. She wishes she have more time with him as much as possible.

Upon reflecting this post to myself, I realize I never be able to have such Love towards my father. Nope, the hurt he have done towards me have left a deep scar within me. Yes, I have forgiven him but no, I'm not ready to reconcile with him just yet, I can't. It's really sad, and i really envy her till a point that Im ashamed of myself that I cant no more put myself in the position to show a little love rather than just obligation of a son towards a father.

Harmony, if you're reading this, Im telling you, I would trade all i have now so I could plant a tiny seed of love towards my family. but unfortunately my heart has gone too far and too cold for my family now. Its nothing but my blood-relatives.

And to my dearest Harmony Wee May Cher, trust me, your stronghold of love doesn't go unnoticed, he's already there, he knows and he feels it. He sacrificing this precious moment with you for YOU, and Your Future. So persist on on life, dun give up, dun let him down. He loves you more than anything else in this world.

Wee May Cheer 4 Harmony !! =D

No, nothing life shattering, nothing so bad hit my life, nothing, it's just that Im worn out, worn out in trying, tired of failing, sick of being unnoticed,

Im sorry for being ignorant, being selfish, isolate myself from everyone. But for now, i just cant possibly offer u anything more but a smile. Im not one for words.

Rolling in the deep

a song by Adele.. well, its really a nice song, the radio just cant stop playin this song. then, i realise many people a cover of the song, officially one song that gt the most cover in the most short amount of time.. hmm, so i decided to post some cover videos on my blogs.. bt first of all the lyrics

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch, and it's bringing me out the dark
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare
See how I'll leave with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch
And it's bringing me out the dark

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

Baby, I have no story to be told
But I've heard one of you
And I'm gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there
As mine sure won't be shared

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
But you played it with a beating

Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
It all, it all, it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

You could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

But you played it
You played it
You played it
You played it to the beat.

1. the original artist - Adele



2.Maddi Jane (Youtube artist)



3.Linkin Park (their first cover of another artist song)



4. John Legend



5. Sam Tsui & Tyler ward (two youtube sensation colaboratin)



6. Mike Posner



7. Glee Cast



8. Mike Tompkins (Accapella artist)



9. Boyce Avenue



10. David Cook (American Idol winner)



11.Alex Goot & Justin Robenett & Michael Henry (personal favorite)



12. David Choi ( Producer)



13. Kina Grannis



14. Jamie XX remix



15. Jake Coco & Tiffany Alvord (Youtube Artist)



16. Christina grimme (Youtube Artist)



17. The Fu (youtube duo)



wow, believe thrs more to come! bt yea, i think Adele gonna hit some world record for most covers by other artist..

"Rolling in the Deep" has reached number one in eleven countries and top five in several other countries. The song has also become Adele's first number-one song in the U.S., reaching the top spot of four Billboard charts. "Rolling in the Deep" spent seven weeks atop the Billboard Hot 100, the longest-running number-one single of 2011 so far. In July, the video was nominated for seven MTV Video Music Awards nominations, making it the most nominated music video of the year.[5] -wikipedia-

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