Day 1

Class started today. Nothing really significant happen today. Well, some highlights are i started my tamil 101 class today.. My teacher Mr.Raja and also Ms.Prema, lovely couple who used to lived in P.Msia and now in Labuan.

How is my resolution? Is no where near i guess. I fall into temptation again as i bought another pack of cigarette. And also i havent been really transparent with my friend, being very secretive and all. :(

One of my closest friend ask me to bring my helpful attitude to Sabah so i could be the light, well, there's any door, and i honestly feel being a light under a box.

How la???

T-minus 1 hour

Once in bible school, I was taught this quote

A life not reflected, is a life wasted.

The whole purpose of this quote being told to me once simply because the school would like to implant the habit of journaling in me. Well, honestly speaking, it didn't really worked out simply because i didn't like to think.

I'm generally a pessimist, or aka 'EMO'. So, when i really do sit down and collect my thoughts and try to paint a picture from it, it usually end up to a very depressing conclusion.

However, I haven't never really had a chance to pen down, or in this case, type down this incident that recently happen.

Due to my wrong attitude in approaching my pre-tertiary education and life last year, i have done badly for my major exam. This leads to a bad odd of me entering any local university to continue my studies. My teacher's advice for me upon looking at my result was, "Chun Yeet, have you considering to start working at a younger age?'', knowing that local uni enrollment is not on my favor.

However, it is written in the bible

Jeremiah 29:11 - 'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future

So,

With this promise from God, I've decided to allow God to take control my life, and now, I'm officially a student of University of Student, studying International Marketing (which so happened to be my first choice in applying for enrollment)

In less than 1 hour, I will soon start the day as a student, my first class will start at 8am tomorrow morning. This so happened to be my first officially lecture too. A little nervous and excited. Excited to learn, nervous because i have not have direct input of information for a very long time.

This chance of being able to persuade is not by luck, not by probability, not by man's decision but I believe is by the Grace of God. A second chance for me to restart, to rejuvenate my life and most important of all to remember of His grace that has abound on me.

Now, life is not really that depressing after all, I don't see why not start journaling again. Not a book that holds complaints, and whines about how it doesn't work out. But simply a page to record down of God's faithfulness, grace, mercy, and love even in the darkest hour.

For ,

'Your love guide me through my darkest night'- Running after You- Planetshaker

and our response should be

'In the darkest place we will be your light,'- Solution- Hillsongs

because

'The night is the darkest before dawn'-Harvey Dent, The Dark Knight

Haha, Something like that la. This are some resolution i made for the three years down the road.

1) To stay True to myself and to God. To worship God in spirit and in Truth

2) To continue the daily habit of doing devotion and journaling

3) To quit smoking permanently

4) Strive excellency for God.