Its a day before my finals, STPM. Well, frankly speaking I already given up. Why? Everyone been asking me that? Why gave up on your studies? Why have u change? Why u have become like this? What went wrong?
Honestly, really, i dont know. Well, it's not because i really have no idea, but i refuse to think about it. I really dislike thinkin, Sometimes i wished i could just be a robot, just follow instruction, there isn't choice, there's no need think.
to be continue... i promise i'll come back. Just too tired to think now
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Just saw a post done by a good friend of mine, Harmony wee, and immediately i couldn't hold back my tears upon reading her post..
Its a really simple post, saying how much she misses her dad, and how she precious every moment she have with him. She wishes she have more time with him as much as possible.
Upon reflecting this post to myself, I realize I never be able to have such Love towards my father. Nope, the hurt he have done towards me have left a deep scar within me. Yes, I have forgiven him but no, I'm not ready to reconcile with him just yet, I can't. It's really sad, and i really envy her till a point that Im ashamed of myself that I cant no more put myself in the position to show a little love rather than just obligation of a son towards a father.
Harmony, if you're reading this, Im telling you, I would trade all i have now so I could plant a tiny seed of love towards my family. but unfortunately my heart has gone too far and too cold for my family now. Its nothing but my blood-relatives.
And to my dearest Harmony Wee May Cher, trust me, your stronghold of love doesn't go unnoticed, he's already there, he knows and he feels it. He sacrificing this precious moment with you for YOU, and Your Future. So persist on on life, dun give up, dun let him down. He loves you more than anything else in this world.
Wee May Cheer 4 Harmony !! =D
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
No, nothing life shattering, nothing so bad hit my life, nothing, it's just that Im worn out, worn out in trying, tired of failing, sick of being unnoticed,
Im sorry for being ignorant, being selfish, isolate myself from everyone. But for now, i just cant possibly offer u anything more but a smile. Im not one for words.
a song by Adele.. well, its really a nice song, the radio just cant stop playin this song. then, i realise many people a cover of the song, officially one song that gt the most cover in the most short amount of time.. hmm, so i decided to post some cover videos on my blogs.. bt first of all the lyrics
There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch, and it's bringing me out the dark
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare
See how I'll leave with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do
There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch
And it's bringing me out the dark
The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
Baby, I have no story to be told
But I've heard one of you
And I'm gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there
As mine sure won't be shared
The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
But you played it with a beating
Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
It all, it all, it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
But you played it
You played it
You played it
You played it to the beat.
1. the original artist - Adele
2.Maddi Jane (Youtube artist)
3.Linkin Park (their first cover of another artist song)
4. John Legend
5. Sam Tsui & Tyler ward (two youtube sensation colaboratin)
6. Mike Posner
7. Glee Cast
8. Mike Tompkins (Accapella artist)
9. Boyce Avenue
10. David Cook (American Idol winner)
11.Alex Goot & Justin Robenett & Michael Henry (personal favorite)
12. David Choi ( Producer)
13. Kina Grannis
14. Jamie XX remix
15. Jake Coco & Tiffany Alvord (Youtube Artist)
16. Christina grimme (Youtube Artist)
17. The Fu (youtube duo)
wow, believe thrs more to come! bt yea, i think Adele gonna hit some world record for most covers by other artist..
"Rolling in the Deep" has reached number one in eleven countries and top five in several other countries. The song has also become Adele's first number-one song in the U.S., reaching the top spot of four Billboard charts. "Rolling in the Deep" spent seven weeks atop the Billboard Hot 100, the longest-running number-one single of 2011 so far. In July, the video was nominated for seven MTV Video Music Awards nominations, making it the most nominated music video of the year.[5] -wikipedia-
"No negatives" -about.com-
*i do not own any of the music or video above. Its all belong to the respective video uploader. :D
Sunday, June 12, 2011
It has been awhile since i blog.. while, pretty much because nobody reads and obody cares..
Hows life? its fine, really, im very comfortable with it. Life is full of tense moment, stressed environment, asshole surrounding, a broken family. YEs, im comfortable it being sucky.
Im comfortable running away from it, I find security in escaping from prblem, in delaying messed.. Life from time from time.. Yes, with my mum that is never ever proud of me, being friends who stands out at least something and u have nothing in your hand, u barely past any of your papers. The fact i still can fake a smile everyday should be praise worthy..
I find myself very useless although i know i'm not (well because everyone tells me im not) because everyone seems to be good at something, and shit, im good for nothing. Im just a fucked up brat, that cries when he loses something, and only knows how to fucking demand for more when he wants it. Thats why God is awesome, He always provide, really He does. Reall, i find no other comfor than in HIm..
I really really love God. more than anything else, when life is all fucked up, and everything is upside down, He there, and He knows exactly wat to do.. Well, often is only i dowan to respond to His solution...... I know he's waiting for me, but i just cant seem to respond to His love. I cant forgive myself for the things i have done, i cant seems to let go of the grudge i have towards the one i hate.
I fly with the stars in the skies, I am no longer trying to survive, I believe that life is a prize, But to live doesn't mean you're alive.
Don't worry bout me, and who I fire I get what I desire, it's my empire And yes I call the shots, I am the umpire I sprinkle holy water, upon the vampire (vampire) In this very moment I'm king, In this very moment I slay, Goliath with a sling, This very moment I bring Put it on everything, that I will retire with the ring, And I will retire with the crown, Yes! No I'm not lucky I'm blessed, Yes! Clap for the heavyweight champ, Me! But I couldn't do it all alone, We! Young Money raised me, grew up out in Baisley Southside Jamaica, Queens and it's crazy cause I'm still hood, Hollywood couldn't change me shout out to my haters, sorry that you couldn't phase me ain't being cocky we just vindicated, best believe that when we done This moment will be syndicated, I don't know, this night just reminds me of everything that they deprived me of, pppp, put ya drinks up, it's a celebration every time we link up We done did everything they can think of Greatness is what we on the brink of.
[Chorus] I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive
I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive
[Drake] Yeah Yeah Yeah, ugh What I tell 'em hoes bow bow bow to me, drop down to ya knees
Young Money the Mafia that's word to Lil Cease I'm in The Dominican Big Papi Ortiz doin' target practice all these bitches just aiming to please shout out to the CEO 500 degrees shout out to the OVO where we set for T's, awww N*ggas wanna be friends how coincidental This supposed to be ya'll year we ain't get the memo Young King, pay me in gold 40 got a bunch of weed he ain't even roll These n*ggas be droppin' songs they ain't even cold Weezy on top and that n*gga ain't even home, yet! yeah, be very afraid these other rappers getting bodied and carried away f-ck it me and Nicki Nick gettin' married today And now you bitches that be hatin can catch a bouquet, ouww yeah, you a star in my eyes, you and all them white girls party of five are we drinking a lil more I can hardly decide I can't believe we really made it I'm partly surprised, I swear d*mn, this one for the books, man! I swear this shit is as fun as it looks, man! I'm really tryna make it more than what it is, cuz everybody dies but not everybody lives!
[Chorus] I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive
I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive
[Nick Minaj] This is my moment, I waited all my life I can tell its time drifting away I'm one with the sunsets, I have become alive.
[Chorus] I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive
I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive
If you're going out with someone new I'm going out with someone too I won't feel sorry for me, I'm getting drunk But I'd much rather be somewhere with you
Laughing loud on a carnival ride, yeah Driving around on a Saturday night You made fun of me for singing my song Got a hotel room just to turn you on
You said pick me up at three a.m. You're fighting with your mom again And I'd go, I'd go, I'd go somewhere with you
I won't sit outside your house And wait for the lights to go out Call up an ex to rescue me, climb in their bed When I'd much rather sleep somewhere with you
Like we did on the beach last summer When the rain came down and we took cover Down in your car, out by the pier You laid me down, whispered in my ear
I hate my life, hold on to me Ah, if you ever decide to leave Then I'll go, I'll go, I'll go
I can go out every night of the week Can go home with anybody I meet But it's just a temporary high 'cause when I close my eyes I'm somewhere with you, somewhere with you
If you see me out on the town And it looks like I'm burning it down You won't ask and I won't say But in my heart I'm always somewhere with you
Laughing loud on a carnival ride, yeah Driving around on a Saturday night You made fun of me for singing my song Got a hotel room just to turn you on
You said pick me up at three a.m. You're fighting with your mom again And I'd go, I'd go, I'd go
I can go out every night of the week Can go home with anybody I meet But it's just a temporary high 'cause when I close my eyes I'm somewhere with you, somewhere with you
Somewhere with you I'm somewhere with you I'm somewhere with you Somewhere with you Somewhere with you
Recently, i was challenged by God to give up something which meant alot to me. It was tough, but then i figured, if it placed a smile in His face, its all worth it.. Why do i know He is smiling, well, i dun really know, but is called faith. Hmm, i dun even knw am i making sense but yes, God never give less, sometimes more, but always enough, so for me to let go what i hold precious was just so that i could something better in return. God is more awesome than anything you are holding now. Plus, the price for the prize is always not cheap..
God called us to be a living sacrifice, to be burned alive so that we can be set on for him.. It hurts, but no pain no game..
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
this is somewhat touching and cool and weird.. haha..
You're so hypnotizing Could you be the devil Could you be an angel
Your touch magnetizing Feels like I am floating Leaves my body glowing
They say be afraid You're not like the others Futuristic lover Different DNA They don't understand you
Your from a whole other world A different dimension You open my eyes And I'm ready to go Lead me into the light
Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me Infect me with your love and Fill me with your poison
Take me, ta-ta-take me Wanna be a victim Ready for abduction
Boy, you're an alien Your touch are foreign It's supernatural Extraterrestrial
Your so supersonic Wanna feel your powers Stun me with your lasers Your kiss is cosmic Every move is magic
Your from a whole other world A different dimension You open my eyes And I'm ready to go Lead me into the light
Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me Infect me with your love and Fill me with your poison
Take me, ta-ta-take me Wanna be a victim Ready for abduction
Boy, you're an alien Your touch are foreign It's supernatural Extraterrestrial
There is this transcendental On another level Boy, you're my lucky star
I wanna walk on your wave length And be there when you vibrate For you I'll risk it all All
Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me Infect me with your love and Fill me with your poison
Take me, ta-ta-take me Wanna be a victim Ready for abduction
Boy, you're an alien Your touch are foreign It's supernatural Extraterrestrial
Extraterrestrial Extraterrestrial
Boy, you're an alien Your touch are foreign It's supernatural Extraterrestrial
it wasnt a season im looking forward too. it never was, bt i guess this year was different. Well, the situation is stil the same. the people are still the same, bt i guess it was the way i took it. :D hehe.. Yes, of coz with alot of Help frm God. :D I guess, knowing that it all started when people love.........
this is love
It’s in the eyes of the children As they leave for the very first time And it’s in the heart of the soldier As he takes a bullet on the front line It’s in the face of a mother As she takes the force of a blow And its in the hands of the father yeah As he works his fingers to the bone yeah
I’m standing under a white flag oh Can you see me oh, can you see me oh I’m standing for everything we have oh Can you hear me oh, can you hear me
This is why we do it this is worth the pain This is why we bow down and get back up again This is where the heart lies, this is from above Love is this, this is love
Love is why we do it love is worth the pain Love is why we fall down, get back up again Love is where the heart lies love is from above Love is this, this is love
This is love (x3)
It’s in the soul of a city What it does after it crumbles and burns And it’s in the blood of a hero To know where he goes he may never return yeah
I’m standing under a white flag oh Can you see me oh, can you see me oooh I’m standing for everything we have oh Can you hear me oh, can you hear me
This is why we do it this is worth the pain This is why we bow down, get back up again This is where the heart lies this is from above Love is this, this is love Love is why we do it love is worth the pain Love is why we fall down, get back up again Love is where the heart lies love is from above Love is this, this is love
This is love, this is love ..
Bridge (rap) If you could be anywhere that you wanted to be With anyone that you wanted to be with Do anything that you wanted to do What would it be and who would it be with you Time flies but you’re the pilot It moves real fast but you’re the driver You may crash and burn sometimes
This is why we do it this is worth the pain This is where we bow down get back up again This is where the heart lies this is from above Love is this, this is love Love is why we do it, love is worth the pain Love is why we fall down get back up again Love is where the heart lies love is from above Love is this, this is love
(This is love!)
of coz at the same time, im having a super hard time to move on.. Haha, i still miss her..
Am I better off dead Am I better off a quitter They say I'm better off now Then I ever was with her As they take me to my local down the street I'm smiling but I'm dying trying not to drag my feet
They say a few drinks will help me to forget her But after one too many I know that I'm never Only they can see where this is gonna end But they all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense
[Chorus] And my mates are all there trying to calm me down 'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town I'm swearing if I go there now I can change her mind turn it all around
I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words, And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred, So I dialed her number and confessed to her, I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing (nothing, nothing...)
[Verse 2] So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences I know I'm with her face to face, that she'll come to her senses Every drunk step and path leads me to her door If she sees how much I'm hurting She'll take me back for sure
[Chorus] And my mates are all there trying to calm me down 'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town I'm swearing if I go there now I can change her mind turn it all around
I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words, And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred, So I dialed her number and confessed to her, I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing (nothing, nothing...) She said nothing (nothing nothing) Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing Oh I got nothing Nothing I got nothing Nothing Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
[Verse 3] Oh sometimes love's intoxicating Oh you're coming down your hands are shaking When you realise there's no one waiting
Am I better off dead Am I better off a quitter They say I'm better off now Than I ever was with her
[Chorus] And my mates are all there trying to calm me down 'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town I'm swearing if I go there now I can change her mind turn it all around
I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words, And she'll listen this time even though they're slurred, So I dialed her number and confess to her, I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing (nothing, nothing...) She said nothing (Nothing, nothing...) Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing Oh I got nothing (Nothing, nothing...) I got nothing (Nothing, nothing...) Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing Oh I got nothing (Nothing, nothing...) I got nothing, I got nothing
All around me are familiar faces Worn out places, worn out faces Bright and early for the daily races Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses No expression, no expression Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take When people run in circles its a very, very Mad world, mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good [ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/g/gary-jules-lyrics/mad-world-lyrics.html] Happy birthday, happy birthday And I feel the way that every child should Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous No one knew me, no one knew me Hello teacher tell me, what's my lesson? Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take When people run in circles its a very, very Mad world, mad world, enlarging your world Mad world
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Hi Girl you just caught my eye thought I should give it try and get your name & your number go grab some lunch & eat cucumbers WHY, DID I SAY THAT? I don't know why. But you're smilin' & it's something' i like on your face, yeah it suits you girl we connect like we have bluetooth
i don't know why I'm drawn to you Could you be the other one so we'd equal two? and this is all based on a lucky chance that you would rather add then subtract
You & I could be like sonny & cher honey & bears You & I could be like aladdin & jasmine lets make it happen
La La's
Hey How've you been? I know that it's been awhile. Are you tired cause you've been on my mind runnin' thousand & thousands of miles Sorry, I know that line's outta style but you you look so beautiful on this starry night loving the way the moonlight catches your eyes & your smile i'm captivated your beauty is timeless never outdated
i don't know why I'm drawn to you Could you be the other one so we'd equal two? and this is all based on a lucky chance that you would rather add then subtract
babe its been 5 years since that special day when I asked you on our first date i guess it's safe to say
Yo, i know its been a fking long while since i blog. Hehe.. my apologies to people who actually take their time to read this. Well, reason i stop blogging for while is because it consume alot alot alot of time plus i dun have the freedom of internet at home.
Well, today i gonna announce something. That i have decided to end this blog. END it. well, basically, in my blog, all i ever did was just scribble out my thoughts (which is mostly destructive) on the screen. And it has been sorry to say, gave people many wrong thoughts about me and about life. Not only that, the way of expressing my thoughts on blog is not as good as me scribbling it out on a piece of paper, and den throw it away. Hence, i guess this is as far as my blog will.
Ending something just feel so good. U know like how when u finish a story book, u just feel the satisfaction of putting in the effort and the focus on the story. So this is my satisfaction of finishing my blog. But ending it doesnt mean it stop. definatly nono, life still goes on, God will still be there, From the begining til the very end (AMEN) lol.. so people..
by now, u know that this post is just a false alarm and i just lying, like i always do. Haha.. just posting this out of randomness and just for the sake of posting a post. LOL.. nothing can end that easily. This is simply because everything wil mean everything to everyone. So yea, this is not thre end of my blog. :p
and now if u havent figure u just wasted ur past 3 mins reading this post, and by now u should delete this link from ur comp forever. But here something cool.
E- Energy N- Never D-dies
Exactly, nothing actually end... nothing actually die.. Maybe just gone temporarily but it will never ever disappear. So have fun guys. Have a great year ahead! stop reading my blog.
