Forgiving is not about making it even

Forgiving is not about forgetting the past, but leasrning from the past and moving on

Forgiving is about moving on and resolving to what is better

Forgiving is about making peace

Forgiving is not about dweeling in your feeling

Forgiving is not about seeking revenge

Forgiving is the cure to broken heart

Forgiving is an action of love.

Forgiving does not mean its over

Forgiving might mean separation

Forgiving is about fixing a broken relationship

Forgiving is not always about giving.

Forgiving is hard, is the better than hatred

Things to do next week (in no particular order):

1) shopping with the tan's
2) dinner with Kim
3) R & D proposal with Sook
4) Copy Maths homework.. (not gonna happen)
5) Blue BBQ at Deb's
6) Yam cha with Chua
7) Uniform session with F6 Pengawas
8) change your world quest!
9) MPT things..
10) MPT practice ( i think i'm performing)
11) get paid check
12) finish 07 ghost
13) finish Gourmet
14) get a gf?? (maybe not)
15) last but not least.. go DREAMING!!!

alrite.. this merdeka..

i started off like any other day where i felt like is just another holiday. Until i turned on facebook. And my homepage was spam with omplaints and comment about Merdeka. And i was stunted and all i read was change or no hope and all. But it hit me that, how many people are willing to step out for a change. Even if somebody stood up to be a change agent, is the poepl gonna back him or her up?? Lets not even tallk about someone who gonna make the change, is he people ready for a change. BEcause u see, change comes with commitment and requires u to come out from your comfort zone. How many people are willing to do so??

Personally placing racism comment in media is okay for me, but can u imagine the impact of kids reading it. It will definatly change their mindset of their friends who are other races if they could not analyse the issue properly.

Hmm, in conlusion i feel that this merdeka, i have learnt is not about the change we have made, but is bout how much change we will make. Happy merdeka, everybody. =D

letting you make important decision does not mean you know what the best for me, and does not mean all things will goes as u plan. so it does not give u a damn right to take control of my life for u are no God. (even if God, God gave me a choice to foolow or not to follow)

Haih, and yea, thanks for doing stuff without thinking the consequences consequnces.

LOL, wen u rather to belief a lie more than truth, wats the point of talking to you anymorre. u asking me to be rasional, lol? im sorry man. this is wad happen when you have a donkey which is irrational and stubborn. so deal with it man.

i had ebough of tolerating already. Enough man. Not bcoz its getting on my nerve but bcoz u will soon hurt yourself. im sorry, but my words will be sharper.. and its really gonna be on your face..

zzz.. no more Mr.Nice guy i guess.. hehe...

let me start with this, right now, i dun knw wat to feel right now. i dun knw hw to feel and i just want to be numb to everythig. i wanna be cold hearted so that i can be cruel and people wil be scare of me. :) hehe.. i hate stuff that have hidden motive......

I just dun knw hw to feel it right anymore. lolx. told u nt to live by wat you feel

cant u hear sincerity in my voice.

this post its gonna be long. So hit the exit button now, if u do not wish to go on. :D

3 weeks has past since my dad told us that he dont want to leave with us anymore and i guess everything is picking up themself. As much as we try to be strong, we knw it hurts. THe pain of being cheated by someone u love wil not healed in the blink of an eye but time heals. (like everybody says) i know i dun show thhe pain much, maybe i'm good at acting, but the truth is, its hurts.

Well, not really because of the fact the he leave. But it is the small little things u knw. THe way it huurts my mum just raise the anger and hatred towards him, the way my brother try to adapt to wats happening making me feel useless, the fact that i really cant cope with my studies at school really makes me feel useless and like a pos.

few days back, i blame myself, could i ake a difference in what happen? if i had talk to him and confront my dad before about this.. the question just runs in my head, why didnt i confront him when i found out he was bitching and fucking outside when the whole entire family is just burning and suffering and struggling thru life. Could i have change anything?

And this is just half of it. I realised too that i cant tolerate critisim and discrimmination. Honestly, people worked hard and came to where they are today. But yet, u have nt understand a single shit of what they been thru happily be a simon cowell and critize on their life. WTH? who give u the right huh? Shut your mouth and try to see whta realy going on. I mean, have u knw hw deep the scar u have cost and how many friendship, hw many ppl gave up on their dream bcoz of u.. Although this doesnt happen to me recently, but i seen this around too much. And seriously, shut the F@#K up. ( not meant to be rude, bt i guess if i wasnt rude, would you listen, since its your language rite)

found this song recently. And i really feel this song, u knw what im trying to say. hehe.

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie



but 1 thing i know for sure is this.


when life gets tough, u know u are on the right track,

because u wil get stronger, better and

u wil learn to appreaciate life a little bit more once u get thru it. :D

The world cant even hold us back right now. :)

Today started off but, coz i was just plain tired and just so sick of school. And i had to stay back after school for prefect duties, just to knw that my service is nt needed when i arrived there. But then, nt by chance i manage to help out in the afternoon session RECESS REVOLUTION!! awesome stuff man!

but then when i got home, i was just so devasted and tired and dissapointed til i saw this in fb. :)

Mingwei Lee ‎"...Now that the cabinet has officially declared that such non-Muslim
religious clubs and societies are allowed to exist and be formed in
schools if there are at least 15 students signing up, I
hope the school heads, some of whom practise the Little Napoleon
culture, will not make things difficult for the students who want to
...form such clubs or societies." - MalaysiaToday, 05August'10 (credit: Lilyan Chee)


THis is the world cant even hold us back now..

i really wtf (want to fly).. hehe... fml(for my lover) out there.. here's something lame for u guys!! insipired by a 16 yr old boy.

You know we know how
To make em stop and stare as we zone out
The world can't even hold us back right now
Worship you I'm worship you we'll go all out
The world can't even hold us Back right now (yeahhhhh)
The world can't even hold us Back right now (yeahhhhh)

Hey
U are the light and I don't need other help
Got da awesome feeling cause U aare here
U're so big, nothing u can't plan
Life with u everything goes yeah!
Love so unfailing makes our hearts just melt
You're so funny i talk to u till Twelve
You're so great i can't stop and stare
Jesus, saviour, U're my best friend

Follow You coz that's the business
back sliding it's so ridiclous
Zone out so much attention
Scream out You died & rose 'gain (hey! )
They watchin I know this
U're rockin U're rolling
I'm holding, U know it
You know it

You know we know how
To make em stop and stare as we zone out
The world can't even hold us back right now
Worship you I'm worship you we go all out
The world can't even hold us back right now (yeahhhhh)
The world can't even hold us back right now (yeahhhhh)

Hey
Jesus came into my life and take control
Can't stop thinking but come lets go
Ten more years and I might be too slow
Paparazzi i gonna let u know
Come to the party that i came to know
Celebrate coz u came to know

having fun with the groupies and holy ghost
Grand finale' like superbowl
Go hard its your show
Shine His glory out and make them blow
More light more nice when He walk in the door
Or else He'll do it big all over the globe
Yeah!

I said it
Go tell it
Bout His love
Who ready?
I'm ready!
You ready!
Lets do it!

You know we know how
To make em stop and stare as we zone out
The world can't even hold us back right now
Worship you I'm worship you we go all out
The world can't even hold us back right now (yeahhhhh)
(Put your hands up! )
(Put your hands up! )
(Put your hands up! )
The world can't even hold us back right now (yeahhhhh)
(Put your hands up! )
(Put your hands up! )
(Put your hands up! )

You got me worship now (hey)
Got my attention now (hey)
Got everybody in the world wanting to know now
I am ur servant Lord
Come and be my saviour and...
We can roll, soo, ahhhhhh
Bring my body here for You as a daily offering
Take me up out of this world and into heaven oh
Fly me all around the world
What you want me Jesus
I am ready to go now!

You know we know how
To make em stop and stare as we zone out
The world can't even hold us back right now
Worship you I'm worship you we go all out
The world can't even hold us back right now (yeahhhhh)
(Put your hands up! )
(Put your hands up! )
(Put your hands up! )
The world can't even hold me back right now (yeahhhhh)
(Put your hands up! )
Lets celebrate now
(Put your hands up! )
You know that He loves U now!

FML- father's mother's love

honestly, at thos very momment. I just really wanna fml. As in literally f my life. Yea, i knw hw i always say its a different phase of my life. Bt seriously is dam fking tough ok.. I mean seriously wei, is this smetime of jokes. yeap, some speaker once said, God is putting me thru all this bcoz he likes me, bt hey i dun really like myself. In fact, i hate myself.. (denying myself? Lolx)

Fck it la ok. I mean, i used to have a dream to go for my scholarship and persuade my dream, bt fine. Since u dowan it, den so be it. Bt nw u see wat a mess u have leave me and den u just amake it worst. Cme on wei, wat do u want frm me??

Thats nt enuf? Havent u figure out why i prefer staying outside den being at home. Trust me, its mre than frens. do u knw hw tense is it staying wif u. Trying to find fault in me? Like totally wtc? Dun rub it in when u knw that i am right.

Cant u see im trying my best to put a smile on my face already? Can u see that this isnt wat i want? Cant u? Why are u so blind??

Fml is smthg makes someone stronger and better. Bt it can also crush u down one day.

Why did u even decide to have me even when u knw its fking wrong? Yes, this is for the both of u..

finally..

Hmm.. in less than 24 hours, i receive a phone call from my dad, saying that he cant stay with my family anymore.



Yes, again, they fought, and again, my dad was caught cheating again for the countless time. But this time, he ended up leaving the house. Well, i wasnt home when all this happened. When i got home, as usual, my mum was just like any other emo gal, telling me wad happened, and saying that my dad still have affair outside. And say that he have another family besides us. although all this is my mum's assumption, i'm not surprise at all.



Actually, i knew this all along. All this while i've just been 'buat bodoh-ing', keeping all things low, the reason where i belief in time that, all this should be keep low because it will just tear my mum apart. but i guess it's about time.



The marriage that wasnt start not of the reason of love will one day be broken. (see, thats why dun have se before marriage) Because they had me, they are forced to be married, and then till today, it has come to an end.



hmm.. well, i hope both of my parents can act like proper adult and just ket each other go and live their own live from now on. dun hate each other but wish the best for each other. Yes, although both of them are almost 50 years old now, but live is never too late to start enjoying.



currently i decided to stop picking up my dad phone call or in contact, because i think that, they should communicate themselve and not u their child to be the awkward messenger. so yea, i do not hate him.

In conclusion, although this is something i have expected this a decade although, but have prepared myself mentally. But the impact and the pain still really hurts. Haha.. Im fine. seriously. Cause Jesus loves me no matter wat. :)I hope that both of my parents will understand this too, hehe.

Bye dad, i hope this is the last time i'm saying this. :) and this is for both of my parents.

life is very real. just hasn’t be as “in your face” as it is now.. zach from smk seafield.. whoa.. just the thing for me now.. i mean i expecting this thing to happen but just not now. so sien la.. haha.. cant it happen some other time.. lolx...

updates

im sorry this blog has been so dead.. hehe.. so here are so quickie updates..

25th June: yes, its my bfday.. thx for the bfday wish guys.. seriously very touched by every wishes.. and trust me, i had a blast!! haha.. well, i started of in the bus station and head down to run the pre rally in Mentakab, pahang for the first ever rally!! whooo.. Its was seriously beyond awesome man. i mean wat could be better than surrender your 18th bfday back to God. Praise him..

26th june:
The thing was finnaly done!! haha.. sos rally arrived.. Pahang experience their first ever rally inspired by subang rally.. and it changed the lifestyle of the youth in Pahang..

well.. i wanted to post pictures.. but somehow i cant.. dk why.. haha.. blog must have merajuk wif me for not blogging for so darn long..

oh yea.. there was this girl that i never met before, but i get to know her thru msn or smthg like dat accepted christ wen she came for this event. So yea.. awesome stuff wei..

3th july

Exactly, in one week time.. Subang rally is here.. ignite!!

Nothing in contact with fire will ever be the same again..

This year, tough im like so darn old already i still get to serve in the technical team.. so awesome wei.. hehe.. and this year some how.. i ended going to rally with 14 years old... lolx..

Awesome?? yea.. pretty much.

en, rally was good la.. i mean.. i get to went up stage and talk.. amen!! haha.. sorry la.. it was my dream.. And if i wasnt wrong.. Andrian Goh and Samanha from my school actually accepted christ.. haha.. cool stuff wei..

hehe.. NOW:

So far form6 its not bad for me.. hehe.. im really interested in my subjects.. bt my teachers are abit 'errrrrrr' , lets just say, i dun suit their way of teaching.. its not the teachers, its me.. and i hate the stupid firetrucking cocuriculum wei. like seriously wei, first the 8 hours of studies and then we waste another two hours playing chess and snake and leaders.. totally wtc wei..

oh yea.. and then i was selected by the prefect leader to run for head prefect. Haha..

awesome stuff wei.. LOLX. i enjoyed being a prefect but then people like me..

But today when i was running for the campaign..

i felt it was more like a popularity contest than a campaign thing.. haih..

and i really doubt myself whether i can do it or not.. so yea..

so yea.. more updates coming soon.. hehe... lolx.. oh yea.. i shaved bald just for fun.. hehe.. and it just hit me that i really need to grow up wei.. hehe.

called me wat??

called me crazy but didnt maths make u feel the same?
called me weird but being normal is not that fun
called me wrong, well nobody can be perfectly right,
called me mad, well, im just Making A Difference..

this is the time??

Joel Houston once sang, the time has come to stand for what we believe in..

Haha.. In this the time again.. Pahang rally this saturday which requires me to skip school and subang rally the following week, coba iba on the third week and klang rally on the last week of the month. Lol, im already finding so hard to cope with my studies already and i'm just feel like going all out for God.

Ps: In sunway nw, hanging out with 8 gals.. 4 of them are nt local.. am i blessed or wat.. haha

this is what i feel rite nw

this rock..

another reason why I bought my new phone.. I can blog anywhere.. Lol.. Awesome-ness.. Hehe...

I feel my blog is quite meaningless.. haha.. who actually reads my blog. so anyway, updates about me.. I LOST MY WALLET FOR THE FORTH TIME!! haih.. this time wif more cash, license etc etc... haih.. dunno la.. bt i believe God is doing smoething good in my life la.. no matter wat happens, he has a plan for me.. haha..

LOL..im a pengawas percubaan wei.. believe it or nt.. lol.. is really adventurous la..haha... cant do it without God tough.. requires a lot of perseverance.. hehe.. especially when you a totally 'off' kid when you're form5.. haha..

i like her voive.. Christina Grimme

It was like every other night, where i was calling my study mates to go out study with me. But Then i realize that everybody was with their family tonight. It immediately hit me that today was wesak day and its a public holiday. Where all the parents just lay back and rest. Then i t hit me again, why wasn't i hanging out wif my family? Well, cause my mum is working.. Yes, even on public holiday.

Haihx.. I felt bad that in a way, my mum is working hard for the family even if its public holiday. and its always she wants the best for me and all. Despite her endless nags, she just wants the best la i guess. This is the reality i guess, nt everybody will get the opportunity to enjoy luxury, but i guess.. my life... simplicity is luxury

Just enough

I feeling very tired and just dun have the courage to even live for tomorrow. I dun have any direction or dun even know whether i have enough strength to live on. Tired, frustrated,demotivated,sad.. SICK both mentally and physically....

The one i hope, seem to be hopeless.. The love i expect love seem to turn around me.. But all i need is YOU. You are all i need, you give strength everyday, never less, sometime more, but ALWAYS just enough to move on for tomorrow. :)

Strength of God is living on today even you didnt know you can live on..

Do or die

I guess i have achiened my selffish goal of being finacial independant.. But somehow.. Something is missing.. Haih.. DO or die. do also die.. dun do also will die.. Firetruck

FORM 6 wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~ heheh.. yea!!

WISE quote of the day:

A new start but the end of the race is drawing near, so live like you're dying, if today is your last day...

This is my story, this is my song..
i will praise You all the day long...

there's so many things that words cant explain.
and my action is not enough to express

but all i know is that u care,
because i can feel u there,
every momment even when im down and sad..

so walk by next to me,
together we will make our own love story
and i will create history,
all for the sake of Your glory.

Yes.. i know my blog is dead...

Hmm... let me put something more encouraging this time la..
If you want something.. Go for it... Becuase your dreams are only dream which will nt come true if you dun go get it..

Haha.. why it only hit me know that, in life. sucess needs more than oppurnity but also effort..

lol.. i dun realy know where i am going with this post.. but again.. i really anna change my life.. like seriously..

I not gonna be myself anymore.. i wanna be myself but only better.. talking about myself and better..

which dude is better??

can He please everybody?

You know.. People always say.. you cant please everyone... But now the question is? Can God pleases everybody?? What I'm saying now, the creator of this earth, the begining and the end of time and every living thing.. The everlasting God, the person that is full of love and mercy.. CAN HE PLEASE EVERYONE and full fill every needs of every man..

Honestly, i don't know. If he could, how do you explain the endless problem in this earth and countless people that go thru so much pain? But if he can't, so much for the almighty and powerful God. LOL

But as far as i have conclude.. is this laa.. God is already pleasing everybody, whether they realize it or not.. Its so obvious guys, when you gonna do something bad, does He sent a lighting down from the sky and shock u till death.. no rite.. But sometimes, when stuff doesn't go your way (God not pleasing you), its simply bcoz He has a greater plan for you!lol.. again is really wat i think only laa

I wish

I wish i could start typing the thought in my heart now.. and suddenly compose a long long long blog spot. But i just cant.. i have tons tons and tons of stuff kept inside my heart and i really want to let it all out.. but i'm just feel so lost and confuse that i just dont know where to start.. Flip la...

But one thing is for sure, i know i dun want to do hotel management anymore.. what i really want is event management.. thanks to a wannabe event planning girl meet in sunway, which i forget her name that reminded me..

zz.. so where to study?? mas com or hospitality.... Form 6 or sucky uni?? FLIP FISH FEED FEET F********

I just feel like blogging

Honestly, i dont know wat to blog about, but currently just so you know, my SPM result are not that awesome.. and i not super rich can go college.. and score A is very pressuring.. so yea.. zz.. anyway.. My emotion are so mixed up la.. lol.. SUPEREMO.. cant tell truth or lying..

Song in Latin

Is warm and loving with her family and friend
Is sometimes impatient, but understanding
Overall, she's just plain super
Keeps on going, even after she stumbles
Believes she is valuable and worthwhile person
Takes full advantage of the pleasures everyday
Believes in prasing and supporting others
Has a great, kind, and fun loving personality.

Sally Nigel and bernard...1997

Hello Form6

Hello form 6.. we gonna have quite a journal together.. hehe.. two years down the road taking stpm..

haiz.. this is God will.. may His will be done and not mine.. challenge ahead bring it on

Like A firework

Like a firework, once the fire starts burning and you just can wait for the wick to finish burning and just to see what happens to the firework.

every second it burns, the more nervous you get. And deep down you know there's only two things that will happen.. either the firework explode into flying colours or you end up burning yourself..

Yes. this is how it felt today, while we waiting for our result. The atmosphere was so intense and we know its either good and we will be happy or we will be sad and disappointed if the fireworks do not work, and backfired.

Well, what happened to me was, my firework didnt work. There wasnt a single spark that happened. so yea.. i was kinda neutral about what i got laa.. haha.. but in conclusion

Isiah 58:5-8 says that God has a plan beyond our imagination for all of us. Big fireworks, or if it doesnt work, or if it backfired.. so get fired up for God.

MARCH 11

The turning point of my life..

This is the junction where i decide whether i going to form 6 or i shall go on persuade my dream.. wait wat dream?? nobody agrees with wat im doing.. even myself.. i also dun know wat to do.. zzz.. as if i can go persuade my dream.. nobody seems to care..

is it just me or i just feel the world is just very dark... zzz.. run away from this town..

Thanks

Thank you for blaming me for shits

Thank you for digging up the past

Thank you for making me feel like i'm a piece of shit

Thank you for making yourself so right when you yourself know you're not

Thank you for making me feel i'm not worthy enough

Thank you for spoiling my night just before my undang test

THank you for relating every little small thing as tough it was my fault

Thank you for rubbing it

So wats next huh??

Still want me thank you for tomorrow night that you gonna give me a rough time just before my result day

I cant take it anymore..

I tried talking to you

but did you hear me out.. NO you just go on and on rubbing it in..

Im nt perfect you know..

zzz...

the sad part is not the scolding.. it is when i'm not in fault and you just dont care and put the blame on me when you doesn't even have to care...

Based on a true story

Have anyone once asked you this before? If i and MR.X felt into the ocean, who would you saved? Well, this is based on real life story.. Dont really know the detailed story but i think the meaning is still there..

A pastor giving a sunday sermon suddenly decided to give a story:

'Church, once a upon a time, there was a young Christian boy who decided to go out with his friend for fishing at a river nearby their house. Something happen causes both of them fell into the river. Neither of them can swim and both of them started to shout and asked for help. The boy's dad came and saw what happened but the problem was that he could only saved one of the boys. Is whether he saves his own son and leave his son's friend to die. Without wasting anytime, he jumped into the river and saved the boy's friend and he left his son behind and the river just bought his son away.And that was the last time, he ever see his son again. (means the son died laa)

Yes, the boy father chose the his son's friend over his own son. Why?? His wife wanted an explanation. The father said... 'I know that our son have went back to be with our Father in heaven, but this boy here, have not came to know the Lord yet, and because of that, I cant let this boy died without experiencing the touch from God.'

After the pastor said this story, everybody kept quiet, deeply in their heart thinking.. 'yea rite, this is just a story, but i don't think in real life anyone will do this'

And the pastor continue: 'Church, I'm the boy that got saved in the story'

It only takes one wrong word to break our relationship,
But why it often requires One life
for us to reconcile with the one with love??

My another first time

I went to theme park is time square ytd!!!hehe.. Imy first there.. LOL.. me so happy..
the roller coaster and the spining thing was awesome.. the after effect of the spin was also awesome.. I just cant stop going to toilet after every spinning thing and let my lumch out.. Of coz.. thank you jaclyn for buying me the ticket (yes, a girl bought me ticket.. :( ) To truly describe the ride there.. this song should explain it la



But during the roller coaster, wen it reach the highest point.. i felt like i had nothing to depend on, and it was exciting yet thrilling.. i felt like i was flying.. God... i want to fly one day... like really fly... into the blue sky and undefined gravity... and just fall down

I know you guys care

Does this sound familiar

Dont sleep so late laa

Dont play so much dotA la..

Dont be so rude to your mother la..

Dont so bad la..

Dont simply waste your money la..

Dont go out so much la..

Dont so lazy la..

Dont like this la.. Dont like that la

Surprisingly, it didnt come from my MUM, it come from my frens.. LOL... Speechless

emoooo..XD

some how this make sense..

A wise quote from PhD Gary chan: Starting to emo le, emo le jiu sad, sad le jiu slp, slp le wake up jiu donno what happened liao.

haha.... this is not happening to me (if you belief la), just suddenly feel like posting it..

Yes. im back

So, I survived another CNY.. hehe.. currently gt touched by the recent the valentine daay show.. A show so wrong but some how it speaks to me.. Hehe.. working on a new script now.. so yea.. Im fine guys.. no worries!!

COMPLAINTS

Hey there, yes im still gonna complaint about cny!! honestly, is not a very nice of celebraion for me la.

And wat's wrong with her, i mean, u were there and you're putting the blame on me. You saw he was bullied but you didnt give a shit. And wen it went missing you blaming me. Shouting at me.. Think you're so right, bringing up the story from the past, making assumption about the future.. wtc lah..

Haiz.. I really cant take this.. can i just let it go... pass it on

leechunyuen26@yahoo.com

CNY boredness

Another reason Why i hate CNY

She really know how to pick me off.. Like totally!! ish.. Eh hello, i cant teach you everything in one shot rite.. Wateva la.. just want to get back home soon!!

The way of an adult

Sometimes the way adukts act are hard to fathom but their reason are always easy to figure out.

Take today as an example,

My parents decided to go to my mum grandmother's place to visit her mum.. (duh) I didnt want to follow so i stayed in my auntie's place. So i stayed there since 10 am and i online, and facebook and just surf the internat lahh.. special thanks to people who chat me through my boredness.

Ok.Everything was fine till dinner time, they didnt show up AGAIN. They didnt bother to call me, text me or wat so ever shit. Untill i ask my brother to call my mum. Then only she said she's not coming out for dinner. (erm hello, i'm stuck in this hse for the whole day and you not coming to pick me up) WTC?? I mean you not joining us for dinner, u dont bother to give me a call.. Wtc is wrong with them??

I know la they want to have dinner with her mum but at least not the last minute notice lahh..Like seriously. How am i suppose to explain to my aunt.. (erm, aunt, mum is still in her mum's place, u need to babysit me and my brother for a little longer. Sorry...)

SIGh... Parents...

IS CNY AND VALENTINE DAY

erm.. Is suppose to be a happy day today.. well it is la.. At least i get peace and quiet and everything looks fine.. no fight so far.. hehe... So everybody.. ROAR-mance

CNY- crappy nonsense year

Its CNY again, A season to emo for me!!
Haih, sien lo..
My dad can't seem to control his doses of anger
Mother couldn't tolerate with him
Brother don't know how to control his mouth
Coming back to ipoh can't seem to be any much help,
infact it seems to make this work
I thought, cny suppose to make family united again
But obviousy not for me
This suck this really do
I find shelther in the house of my aunty
Where it was filled with idol
But why cant it be,
In my grandfather's place
where poster of bible verses is in everyplace
Not only that,
I thought the house of God should be a place of rest
But some how,
in the midst of the conflicts,
everytime i seek the face of god
i felt peace and calmness.
BE still and know I'm God.
Thats what He says
So with everything i am, i'm giving back to You

I'm home

Yes, i'm home!! Is so hot back here.. My God.. It feel like home..

I haven't tasted prosperity burger man... haiz

Did anybody miss me?? Er.. i know you don't, but just admit you do..

Anyway, RBS was really good and instead of life changing i got a life style.. hehe.. for real

Yes, subang still feels like subang, but is as tough i have changed.. Is like si tenggang's homecoming.

But anyway, I didn't really want to come back tough but at the same time, it felt good to come home too.Yes, I'm still having the same shit problem, and i still need to face it. But somehow, i feel better now, like just now, my parents was just fighting, i was just totally calm. Previously i had parents argue-ing fobia. So yea, I just feel better, as tough someone was there to protect me..

ANYWAY, is just good to be home la!!

4th week of bible school

Honestly, this bible school is getting crazier. God's presence is moving in this school. Tears are been shed, and again He wiped it all away.

Holy ghost is breaking the heart that is long harden by the nature of this world. Breaking the wall of our heart and definatly it hurts.

The almighty creator is asking all of us, to surrender the key of asour heart to him?? Are you willing??

All i know is, is getting harder and harder to breathe!!

Half way through It

I survived Residential Bible School yo.. one day three sermons wei.. One thing if i have to describe about RBS is that it require you to think alot.. zzz.. i hate thinking.. but so far it has been fun.. my life is challenge very dofferently.. haha.. i just don't know where to start.. but see you guys soon yea..

HAppy New Year

So it's been a year....